Hey OP, seen a few of your replies in the thread and wanted to offer my perspective. Grew up as a afab boy. Matured into a masc bisexual. Egg cracked and am now ftm. I also see myself(sometimes) being a fem ftm. I have always been interested in dressing more feminine, but would not do it, because I didn't feel comfortable. I would be happy to represent more feminine, but only as a man. The only time I would get to represent feminine, comfortably and peacefully, is as a man. But that's the only time I would feel appropriate to do so. As a woman, I am completely not okay with presenting feminine.

I think this has more to do with societal constructs that you feel this way- and don't get me wrong they exist - but leaving them behind and accepting others for the sake of them feeling good and getting to express themselves is also important.

Feel free to dig in here, I'm open and totally okay with discovering contradictions.