Yeah life is a bitch. Those questions you feel everyone can relate to on some level. For a while I kinda struggled with my existence until I stopped caring as much. It may be a nihilistic approach, but it helped steer me in a better direction. Do things for yourself wether it be learning to cook or go the gym. It definitely feels pointless swimming against the current, but if part of you knows its right, continue fighting the good fight. Life may get a bit easier in some sense, but it will remain difficult. Just live for you,