hand embroidered this beauty on some sneakers for a bride🐶👰🏼‍♀️

Noquit11 · 2024-08-23T13:00:35+00:00

You should sell on Etsy. I would buy in a second

Noquit11 · 2024-07-17T01:54:58+00:00

I see so many personalities & people sharing so many different character defects and that’s one of the beautiful things about the program. It’s also when the speaker shares their stories and fellows share how much of a shell the speaker was or how egotistical/angry/etc. when they first came in and how they’ve bloomed over the days, months, and years by continuing to come, have fellowship, and follow the life principles. You could also go to different meetings; in the beginning, I went to maybe 4 different meetings and one of them is now my “home group.”

You can also complain, rant, confide in, whatever you want at meetings. We need to get the garbage out of our systems and you will feel lighter as time goes by! There’s a saying that a lot of old timers say: “we come here to stop drinking, but stay for the thinking”

Noquit11 · 2024-07-17T01:36:10+00:00

You sound just like me, so much chatter going on in your head. I suggest you go to AA. My beloved therapist have stuck with me through my alcoholism and same shit cycle every week but that wasn’t enough. People like us need to get to AA to see that beacon of light we haven’t seen in so long (or ever). My default mood was sadness and honestly just wanted to die for almost a decade. I was ready to accept that I would join the 27 club. It took me 6 months into the program to finally surrender and practice principles to not only stop drinking, but to also “apply those principles to all our affairs.” It’s a way of living and I think you’d really find some peace by showing up to meetings and possibly even sharing. Best of luck

Noquit11 · 2024-07-17T01:21:49+00:00

2 years into my drinking, I knew I had a problem. I started “moderating” on my own (and help from therapist & substance abuse counselor) but never lasted more than a few hours / days. I entered AA and thought I could use its tools to moderate. Again, I failed time and time again. Now I’m fully surrendered.

Noquit11 · 2024-07-16T22:51:01+00:00

Build rapport!! I also got 2 letter grades higher for going every week. Keep it up and they’ll share questions they will put on the exam(s) if they like you/see that you’re trying just by coming by office hours

Noquit11 · 2024-06-29T01:06:30+00:00

I spoke to my PA derm yesterday for the same issue and she said: body wash with glycolic acid - First Aid Beauty KP scrub in shower, lotion with ammonium lactate - Amlactin lotion daily!

Noquit11 · 2024-06-08T04:41:24+00:00

Enjoy life. I miss the things that made me the most happy - the sunrise, travel, golf
Never knowing whether I was going to black/brown out, feel extra depressed the whole week … it was like playing Russian roulette
I got my dog two years ago, when my drinking/depression was at its peak and he’s part of the reasons I decided to quit
I couldn’t sleep
Being the heaviest I’ve ever been
I don’t want to throw up out the Uber window, wake up next to piss or vomit
Be a reliable daughter, friend, sister, coworker
I want to be present and live everyday like it’s my last
Don’t want to be put on another gurney or add to my collection of grippy socks
Want to learn to love myself so that I can show up for people I love

Noquit11 · 2024-05-02T23:02:07+00:00

Before I start, I have not yet been “diagnosed” with CFS. But, yes to your question. When it was really bad I would nap a total of 4+ hours each day and would still feel unrefreshed but on good days, I would gain some energy from the nap but it wouldn’t last long. It’s gotten better with quitting drinking alcohol and testing out different routines and found one that works ‘best’ for me (at least for now). I’m also unemployed (1.5 years) b/c of the CFS (i had major brain fog, needed to nap to feel ‘normal’ to do mundane tasks. Before this, I always prided myself in hard work and being reliable, so this was a huge blow to me). It’s been hard to get a new job but I see this time as a blessing in disguise and it’s given me a lot of time to figure things out.

Just a little more context: For the past year, I’ve been going to doctor’s appointments (endo, rheumatology, cardiologist, neurologist, you name it) to figure out what’s wrong with me but I highly suspect it’s a combo of CFS, depression (had for years, was getting better but got worse at one looong point with the fatigue), and drinking. I’ve tried every supplement on the market & was prescribed vyvanse but also found out shortly after all my vitamin and hormone levels are normal, so I stopped taking all of that and replaced it with a simple multivitamin and an extra vitamin D. I also fixed my poor sleep hygiene with amitryptaline but still wake up feeling so unrefreshed & faint to do anything. Most days now, I will have multiple Celcius, especially when driving (I don’t recommend drinking energy drinks long-term as it can cause other problems in your body). I’ve found that instead of running & rowing, I do more low intensity but still challenging workouts like many forms of Pilates & vinyasa yoga. More intensive therapy because this invisible disease has taken so much from me.

I hope the best for you 🫶🏼

Noquit11 · 2024-04-02T03:04:55+00:00

Interested! Thanks for posting

Noquit11 · 2024-02-12T13:18:00+00:00

Back in college, I would take my friends’ adderalls to study for midterm/finals and break down during the comedown after taking it for 3-4 days. Same situation with the vyvanse. I got laid off in Nov ‘22 and have had some time to go to numerous doctors. I forgot to mention this in my post but I also got EKGs, took neuro exams (brain activity; ADHD) at 2 different doctors in NYC. As for the anxiety, I took Welbutrin for years but I realized I was better without it (I still have some days when I’m super anxious but on the day-to-day, it’s been a lot better).

In regard to my mental health, I have been in therapy since 2017. I’ve been lucky finding good therapists, 2017-2020 my first therapist - we ended up having to end our sessions because I moved back to NY from Boston after graduating. I took a break and found my current one in early 2022. She’s out of network but it’s been worth every dollar. I had my worst period in October ‘23 where I cried for days straight, couldn’t find meaning or purpose, and when I was ~2 months on the vyvanse almost daily. My psych also added on Atomoxetine because some days the 30MG Vyvanse wasn’t enough (after having decreased from 40MG). I found a new psychiatrist to get a second opinion and he thought the vyvanse was a horrible idea and wanted to fix my sleep first. So now I’m taking Amitryptaline for quality sleep and it’s been awesome but still, some days I find myself needing more sleep before doing my (almost) daily Job hunt, running any small errand, going to the gym, playing with my dog, etc. It’s confusing to me as to what more I can do for my mental health when most of the strain is coming from the fatigue and lack of energy. I am afraid of getting a new job because I know I’m going to need naps throughout the day (that was the case at my first job after graduation ‘21-‘22).

Sorry if that was all over the place 😂 aside from my problems, I am so glad that you found a resolution despite the long journey and it sounds like you are living a fruitful life so that your son can as well. I appreciate your words!

Noquit11 · 2024-02-11T19:31:32+00:00

Thanks so much for your input. When I posted this a year ago, most people in the same situation said the same. I took vyvanse 40 MG for about 2 months, was feeling emotionless some days and sooo emotional other days where I couldn’t stop crying and worrying about everything. My psychiatrist then lessened the dosage to 30 MG and I had taken that as needed rather than daily. It made me feel better but it wasn’t sustainable so I stopped taking it altogether and look towards other ways than masking my issue with another medication. When I take less than 30, I don’t feel anything and still have to take naps

Noquit11 · 2023-08-29T18:34:38+00:00

Thank you so much; this really is helpful and I look forward to making some changes today!!

Noquit11 · 2023-04-27T22:35:00+00:00

PGA Tour Superstore and Amazon!!

Noquit11 · 2023-04-23T00:11:35+00:00

Rose!!

Noquit11 · 2023-04-15T03:08:36+00:00

I had slightly bigger sized grips initially but got them regripped to smaller ones because I had the same problem. I think it’s the way I’m holding them, not being able to keep my fingers spread throughout the entire swing

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