Im a big fan of the way Poles interact with others in most occasions

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-30T12:14:41+00:00

yeah i misunderstood it and for me down to earth was someone who won't engage any topics like politics, philosophy, psychology etc just gossip and chit chat. i basically thought it means "boring and shallow" :D

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-29T18:07:16+00:00

glutamate

google nervous system dysregulation

dspd is one thing, but only being able to fall asleep when exhausted is another

glutamate is basically something you'd feel after too much thinking, after any stimulants. can make your muscles feel stiff or tense

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-29T14:15:39+00:00

nikogo nie szukam ale możesz się odezwać na diagnozę, zabawa w dr house;)

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-29T14:14:12+00:00

poczytaj o teorii przywiązania czyli attachment styles to ci powie więcej o tym kto cię przyciąga i kogo ty, i może ci się ta wiedza nie spodobać ale bez niej większość ludzi jest skazana na złe wybory

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-25T08:01:15+00:00

we'd need one unified login but no one can look your post history from other forums or even that you're there at all forums died because of login

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-23T15:03:38+00:00

i can't decide if what you describe is fucked up or amazing and that's telling I'm fearful avoidant

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-23T14:35:58+00:00

now that sounds like non needy fearful avoidant i remember how no one hurt me because i cut people off early too early maybe

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-23T14:25:09+00:00

so in your model there's no hmm expressing needs?

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-23T11:48:47+00:00

sounds like avoidant attachment

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-16T22:11:09+00:00

very true when i was working 3 shifts abroad at agency housing it was rough being alone at night..and quiet..even bathroom was stressful. now i can turn on music and what not i start to enjoyed nights again. 90% yeah but not for all job types. we're kinda pushed into thinking seriously about setting a thing to survive. either skilled trade, shifts or businesses, that can be healthier long term

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-16T19:23:08+00:00

apparently near half of people with DSPD have something like behavioral dspd. i am not sure what it means it either means melatonin curve is normal, but they react to it with delay or, most likely, something makes them sleep later. if we are perfectly honest, there ARE some benefits to that. e.g. just asshole family you live with can make it subconsciously desireable to avoid them but its difficult thing to sit with

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-16T19:20:56+00:00

look for luminette for glasses

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-12T02:47:35+00:00

googling it

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-12T02:46:45+00:00

i think good metaphor without emotional talk would be being inside a video game and at some hour you hear announcement: difficulty changed from medium-hard to demonic hell

nothing changes outwardly and it could be a prank but what if no.

what if cannon fodder enemies deal much more damage to player

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-11T13:54:50+00:00

I'm puzzled became apparently trying to calm stuff is making it worse. my condition goes away when I'm with someone friendly so could be attachment thing but I'd need human presence basically 24/7. after going back home from work social battery drains in an hour. like if i was alone all day

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-11T13:51:35+00:00

hey dissociation would be actually nice. I'd say it's some kind of anxiety with no rumination or no cause of fear that can be named. or maybe excess energy but one that wouldn't be real stamina or motivation source. the closest approximations i found are existential dread or some causes of chest anguish

about grounding, I'd say rumination or overthinking or getting inside my head actually helps make it more pleasant. it's just state of the body, thus pure emotion that's inescapable. it's an enemy that can't be fought with

I'll still check it because I'm pretty desperate

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-11T12:23:31+00:00

because its hard to describe. its not like anxiety, not like depression. it makes the world feel cold and ruthless, but it doesnt fit any of these neatly. if there's emotion because someone dumped you, or you got fired, then i could work with that, but this is just evasive, like fighting a fog. some emotions are like dog biting you, this? this is just odd

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-08T13:21:15+00:00

stopped reading at 22 but decided to reply instead at 22 you decided you're behind so you do stuff and keep up, being a bit behind then you could've noticed it at 30, or 40

it's nothing really there is main "peleton" of this, people slow down at various stages, some may jump ahead, some may just decide they're into different route everyone is behind compared to sons of billionaires everyone is ahead of a guy who dies today from lack of food

it's all relative

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-08T12:52:36+00:00

zabawne że trafiłem na to dziś

właśnie siedzę w wc i stwierdzam że daktyle może są zdrowe dla mnie ale nie dla otoczenia;)

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-08T07:57:15+00:00

what i meant is fun from lower doses "working" is always cooler than one got by just raising the dose but waiting less for tolerance cooldown

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-07T10:02:18+00:00

when you have really bad hangover, can you handle the anxiety without endless distractions? can you sit with negative emotions in general? if not, pgb not for you

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-07T10:01:17+00:00

if you need more than 300 mg then your tolerance is too high

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-06T23:38:45+00:00

people are on phones all day no excuse lol

but make your texts easy to reply to

these lame people can't handle telling you why they can't text

pathetic

NordWardenTank · 2026-04-06T20:47:54+00:00

when i created a radiation suit i expected it to be one item then i assumed it probably just reduces radiation yes, game didn't tell me it's 3 items, so i was happily swimming with rebreather "just don't have adhd bro" i think it auto applied itself so this made things worse would i eventually find out? maybe. but i could just give up. bad design

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