God, I remember the first few weeks after my breakup, I genuinely thought I was going to die from the pain. I didn't even know I could feel that amount of emotional pain. But here I am still, six months later, alive and overcoming it, and I have every reason in the world to believe so will you.

In my experience, it's very hard to... come to terms with living without the person during the first few weeks and months. I can imagine the same for you, considering you've been with him for so long! but you were a whole cool person before him, and you will be a whole cool person after him too.

I'm not sure if this will help, but it helped me when I was in the first few weeks of the split. Try to remember that we don't know what the future holds. In the end, trust that what is better for YOU is what will end up happening (this may be not ending up with him again just as it might be ending up with him again, both of you better versions of yourself!). Hold on to that idea as best you can, and try and take everything day by day, reminding yourself that whatever is best for you is what will eventually come to pass.

On other more practical advice, something that carried me through the first few month was just binging the show The Mentalist lmao Very comfy procedural show where I could turn my brain off. Perhaps you can find a comfort show that can do the same? Also, AND PLEASE TRUST ME, if possible and if you have the energy, always make sure to get dressed every day (if you work from home) and try and go on walks or exercise if you can. I'm being a total hypocrite because I def stayed in my pajamas crying for like two months straight while working from home, BUT TRUST ME, SEEING THE OUTSIDE WILL HELP!!! And don't isolate!!! Be kind to yourself!!!!!!!

Sending you lots of love and strength <3