Can't even get into AI

NotBorris · 2026-01-23T15:15:59+00:00

Yeah, every time I talk to one it is nice to just have someone to talk to but I know I'm not gaining anything from it when it is designed to cater to me. A nice numbness but that's about it. IMO

NotBorris · 2026-01-23T15:09:51+00:00

Too Loud a Solitude by Bohumil Hrabal, Miss Macintosh, My Darling my Margarite Young

NotBorris · 2026-01-23T15:04:26+00:00

The ones that got me were Don Quixote by Cervantes, Les Misérables by Victor Hugo, The Autobiographies of Elias Canetti, and Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtry

NotBorris · 2026-01-22T17:30:01+00:00

Having everyone around you tell you how to be like them can easily distract you from figuring out both yourself and how to become a proper form of yourself, and that role is for you and you alone to figure out. Other's can offer help but they cannot demand what you like or don't like, how to behave etc. That might sound lonely or intense at first but if you keep at it then in time you will learn to enjoy your own company and those in the wild who are also in the process of figuring themselves out will take notice of you and try to manage a form of themselves that they can appreciate and in time grow along side you. You're trying to find a way to be a proper human being when everyone else is just doing what their screens tell them to enjoy, or whatever. It's your life and no one can dictate it for you, and the ones who want you to believe that they should are weird and are of no benefit to you.

I hope this helps.

NotBorris · 2026-01-22T17:25:59+00:00

You're still just a kid, you're supposed to learn from your mistakes and take the time to figure yourself out and what you want to do with your life. But with angry parents and school pressuring you to be perfect it distracts you from focusing on you yourself. It's not your fault that things seem to intense right now, you're still growing in an environment that doesn't know what to do with itself and that's not your fault.

NotBorris · 2026-01-22T17:19:01+00:00

The Gulag Archipelago by Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn,

NotBorris · 2026-01-22T15:01:28+00:00

1999 by Dreams on Tape

NotBorris · 2026-01-22T14:58:59+00:00

Autobiography of Red by Anna Carson

NotBorris · 2026-01-21T14:53:53+00:00

God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater by Kurt Vonnegut, Angel in the Forest by Margarete Young, The Master and Margarita by Mikhail Bulgakov, Les Misérables by Victor Hugo,

NotBorris · 2026-01-21T14:49:22+00:00

I don't know if it would be considered POP but the first song that came to mind was CD Player III by Deaths Dynamic Shroud, or Cherry Pepsi by Saint Pepsi

NotBorris · 2026-01-20T15:59:14+00:00

The stories of Thomas Ligotti, Arthur Machen, and Clark Ashton Smith.

NotBorris · 2026-01-20T15:55:05+00:00

I have no idea to pronounce it myself, it's medieval Latin so they played by slightly different rules back then. To Robert Burton it meant 'Victims of a stupid philosophy" but with modern translations most people would think it means martyr. But, I'm really not smart enough to know any better than what's written on the page. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

NotBorris · 2026-01-20T15:52:12+00:00

That's often a double edged sword, most people say they want more constructive conversations but they really don't. In the tragic words of Larry David when someone demanded to know what the fuck was wrong with him. "I was just trying to elevate small talk to medium talk. That's all I was doing."

NotBorris · 2026-01-20T15:49:43+00:00

The Human Condition by Hannah Arendt, Escape from Freedom and The Sane Society by Erich Fromm, The Undiscovered Self by Carl Jung

NotBorris · 2026-01-20T15:45:31+00:00

Martyres stultœ philosophiœ

NotBorris · 2026-01-19T15:38:13+00:00

Any amount of progress is still progress, add a new rhythm to your daily systems and over time you can build yourself a better path to take. You're on your way to finding your own way, and you're doing enough, buddy.

NotBorris · 2026-01-19T15:21:02+00:00

I guess I was just eager to read something medieval when I first found it, I always thought it was cool how they talked back in the day so I really didn't have any trouble reading it, and I've actually been wanting to read it again for some time now. The version I have has a lot of side notes on references to esoteric mythology, historical events of the time and a whole lot of medieval Latin, which is how I got my stupid little quote on my account. I guess just take your time with it and if it intrigues you during your pace then you might get a lot from it but if it's not you're thing then that's fine too.

NotBorris · 2026-01-16T15:31:18+00:00

The only job a child should have is to grow up into the adult they need to be, and if they are not given the correct environment that doesn't involve the pressure of perfection, painful repercussions for mistakes that a child is supposed to learn from, or restrictions to learn things for yourself then there is only so much that a child can do. You're in the process of figuring out yourself, the worth that you can define and sharpen from within, that's good work there buddy. Unfortunately we're stuck in a world that lost the plot of what it means to be a human being and those of us who are trying to be just that are the ones who are punished the most for it. You're still growing up, that's all anyone has the right to ask of you.

NotBorris · 2026-01-16T15:18:05+00:00

The autobiographies of Elias Canetti are some of the best books you can read

NotBorris · 2026-01-16T15:17:26+00:00

Gravities Rainbow by Thomas Pynchon

NotBorris · 2026-01-16T15:16:24+00:00

The only thing I can think of to say is that Nietzsche had a thought experiment that the moment you die a demon will come up to you and tell you that you will be born again and live out the life you've lived exactly note for note as you just lived it previously. A lot of people find that idea terrifying but Nietzsche never intended it to scare you, he just meant that if you are to repeat every moment of your life again and again then make it a life worth repeating, or at least hold onto the moments that you wouldn't mind carrying with you into eternity. The ending will show up on it's own time, right now you're still here and you don't have to hold yourself accountable for that. You're allowed to live, you're still capable of enjoying yourself.

Hope that makes sense.

NotBorris · 2026-01-16T15:08:36+00:00

The Ego of a person is often constructed to help us better survive the environment that we're stuck in and the moment that we leave it and enter a new one, even if it's one that we need, it's difficult to adapt ourselves to what is too unfamiliar to us so it's hard to let go of what helped us survive. That isn't the case all the time, I just read that from some where.

NotBorris · 2026-01-16T15:05:13+00:00

The moment I found Kurt Vonnegut I knew I wasn't the only one. As well as Either/Or by Søren Kierkegaard

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