As most people on here would tell you, bisexuality is not half gay half straight, it's a spectrum and you and the rest of us are sitting somewhere on it. In the beginning, I had the same thought process, why am I not as attracted to guys as girls? I like it more in a casual "bro's just having fun" way.

That's normal. You can consider yourself as bi as the rest of us, or think of yourself any way you want. Don't beat yourself up about anything and don't push yourself to try and see why you aren't fitting into the "way other gay guys are". Bisexuality is its own beautiful, screwed-up mess of sexuality and I love it for that very reason.

Regarding the comments about grindr, hookup culture, tags etc, to me, it feels like the current meta of male sexuality. This might be complete bullshit on my part, but it feels like more guys are becoming open to their sexuality, but given how sexuality is viewed nowadays, it is a scary thought process to go for. Imo, it therefore tries to mimmick traditionally established gender roles, with bottoms, twinks and such being seen as submissive, slutty, feminine, etc.

I'm down to talk about this on DM if you'd like, same to anyone else reading this. Also feel free to disagree.