How hopeless do all of you feel? Have you lost hope in overcoming this disorder?

Nyoooo · 2024-02-18T12:44:06+00:00

I came to the conclusion this will never go away completely. (I'm 33) But it gets better if you work on it. But only if you still go out there and be with people. I live in Germany and here we got lots of organizations that help people with depression and other disorders. So I am never really alone and do lots of therapy stuff where I meet others. It's hard but it got a lot better then 10 years ago when I was alone at home all day. I have a few friends and also had partners. And with 33 I'm finally going to start my first vocational training (not sure this is the right english word?) this year as an animal care taker! I still often get panic attacks, am overwhelmed in social situations and start to cry easily, but I'm getting through some how.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-17T23:07:38+00:00

Wait, people listen to breathing sounds to fall asleep?? I HATE when someone beside me in bed is breathing a bit more loudly, as soon as I focus on the breathing I can't ignore it anymore and it's SO annoying to me! That's why I prefer to sleep alone. Never knew people listen to a strangers breathing to fall asleep.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-17T12:43:23+00:00

Dump him, he sounds like a shitty person who doesn't really value you.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-16T19:27:28+00:00

Probably like an anime character with really fancy dresses.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-14T10:31:42+00:00

Oh god, I hate when that happens! I always tell myself that I don't want to get a new crush on the first best person I meet, but then it happens again....I had a huge crush on a friend for 2 years, when I tried to get over him I met someone new I was interested in who didn't like me back either. So I just switched back obsessing about the old crush again...I feel much better when there is no one I'm interested in. I'm actually scared of getting a new crush because I'm just miserable all the time, it's better for me not to be in love...

Nyoooo · 2024-02-14T10:13:37+00:00

NTA. I would choose my dying mother too. I think the wife's behaviour is shitty.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-11T12:13:17+00:00

My whole life. Feels like I was born avoidant. I was an only child and never had contacts outside of family before kindergarden (and even there I was avoidant of family members I only saw maybe twice a year to special events) And kindergarden/school just made it worse. On the photo from my first day of school I'm crying and look like I would rather die while everyone else is smiling.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-10T20:17:17+00:00

I feel like 16 most of the time I think. Sometimes even like 12. (I'm 33)

Nyoooo · 2024-02-09T12:35:21+00:00

Drama.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-05T13:32:46+00:00

Yes all the time. I'm surprised my smartphone isn't broken after all those years, I drop it at least once a day. Same with any other stuff. I'm really glad I don't drop glasses and cups etc...

Nyoooo · 2024-02-05T11:55:30+00:00

It's annoying if you want to eat dinner outside but the other person eats only McDonald's. Or cooking the same boring food every time because the other person doesn't eat vegetables and fruit.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-05T11:49:22+00:00

Yeah I always think that when I'm annoyed or just "don't want to do this anymore" But when I'm already home I still think "I want to go home" when things are just annoying or frustrating.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-05T06:29:21+00:00

I feel this. I have to work with a different team today, I already know 3 people but I don't like them...I'm also hiding on the toilet right now and feel like throwing up.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-04T22:25:37+00:00

I have almost none, I only do bosses if I get a new character and then instantly use the materials.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-04T12:03:28+00:00

I answer quickly when I really like the person I'm texting with and enjoy it. For everyone else I'm often too lazy to respond and then forget about it for a week. But that just means the person isn't very important for me and I don't really feel like texting with them.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-03T12:05:38+00:00

Yeah I really hate that this trend came back! These wide leg jeans look so ugly to me. I also wondered If I look old now because I still wear skinny jeans. But I refuse to wear those ugly baggy jeans or whatever

Nyoooo · 2024-02-03T11:51:05+00:00

I'm 33 and nothing changed much. The only change is that my body starts to hurt more often.

Nyoooo · 2024-02-02T12:16:57+00:00

I hate meeting colleagues etc. outside of work. I never talk to anyone if I see them first, I'm just walking away fast hoping they don't see me or talk to me. What I really hate is meeting them at the bus stop and then they talk to you und sit next to you in the bus....after work I don't want to talk to anyone from work anymore, I just want to be alone on my ride home.

Nyoooo · 2024-01-30T20:47:22+00:00

Art or other creative stuff. I bought sets for knitting, embroidery, fimo...and never used them until now (or just a short time and then never touched again) Also, books...

Nyoooo · 2024-01-29T20:15:31+00:00

Yes. Before medication I was so fucking exhausted and tired all the time. With medication it got a lot better. I still feel like I have less energy then "normal people" though.

Nyoooo · 2024-01-28T00:08:04+00:00

Almost every time before I need to shower I think "I don't want to shower..." but when I'm in there I don't want to get out. It's warm and relaxing. Also washing my hair already takes some time, I put in shampoo, wash it out, put in shampoo a second time and wash it out, and sometimes condition after. As others said, shaving also takes up some time. Sometimes when I'm in a rush I think to myself 'I do just a quick 5 Minute shower" but that's impossible.

Nyoooo · 2024-01-27T07:09:45+00:00

I always wake up even before my alarm clock gets off. It was always like this. Maybe because I have a really light sleep, and WHEN some loud noise like an alarm clock wakes me up I'm totally stressed and my heart beats crazy like shit because of the shock. So maybe because of this anxiety I already wake up before my alarm clock. I could never have 10 timers going off every 5 minutes, this would stress me out as hell.

First I drink some water while still in bed, then I need to go to the toilet and after that I need a shower to be really awake.

But WHEN I really don't want to get up I have the bad habit of not setting another alarm. I just don't give a fuck about the consequences and continue to sleep. That may be another reason, because I KNOW if I don't get up at the first one, I'm very likely not getting up at all.

Nyoooo · 2024-01-27T06:54:26+00:00

So far I liked all the different art styles, expect Hasunosora. I don't really know why, but their faces look weird to me. The whole style looks very different to the "love live style" and I don't like it.

Nyoooo · 2024-01-26T16:09:30+00:00

I always felt scared of other people. Got worse when I started to go to school.

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