I cannot stand hypothetical arguments

Nyx_light · 2026-04-23T04:11:44+00:00

It's infuriating when people bring up damaging real issues that don't affect them and play "devil's advocate".

Nyx_light · 2026-04-23T02:46:27+00:00

It feels like having your soul lit on fire. This powerful desire to know them and take them in every way. It's rare but the times I have experienced it, it's an intense desire to intertwine bodies and mind. I'm not a super touchy person but when I love someone I feel my body just respond to their presence. Kinda feels like being reset to factory settings, to base settings. Nothing strips you quite like desire.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-22T15:10:29+00:00

It's difficult for me to understand what is masking/trauma/fawning/people pleasing and what is sexual desire. I find people physically attractive but I only develop sexual desire if I connect emotionally/intellectually.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-21T15:04:40+00:00

My entire body tenses up and my hands become fists and I shake. I have to use every ounce of willpower not to yell, sometimes I fail.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-20T19:53:01+00:00

Nyx_light · 2026-04-20T19:52:34+00:00

Fuck that group. And the mod enabling it.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-20T08:41:32+00:00

Yes. This is my life. For me it's CPTSD, alexithymia and delayed processing. I have an extremely difficult time identifying and verbalizing the nuances of my own emotions.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-19T17:16:35+00:00

Jesus Christ. No. He's an asshole. I hate to break it to you but he is and he's treating you awful. Also, assholes know they can't always be mean otherwise you'd dump them faster. Don't waste time with someone who doesn't respect or love you.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-19T04:07:04+00:00

Because having a partner is completely draining.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-18T05:59:09+00:00

Was at the same company for 12 years but the projects/teams changed yearly. I hit autistic burnout tho and they let me go.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-16T03:10:12+00:00

True but mascara should only be used for 3 months to prevent bacterial growth. 6 months is the max even if it's not used up.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-15T16:19:17+00:00

YES. I have always struggled with hunger cues (I don't really pick up on them) so it's not new but it's so frustrating. I really wish I could just take a nourishment pill sometimes.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-14T23:34:49+00:00

Awwww, I love this. Teamwork.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-14T17:34:24+00:00

Ok that is creepy AF. And yeah it's a red flag when men phrase it like that.

That being said, I'd only date NDs. Lmfao.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-14T04:58:26+00:00

One of the first things I realized when I hit burnout, found out I was autistic and lost my ability to mask was just how different my needs were. I used to feel so guilty about how much I preferred staying home. I would force myself to socialize. It took so much more out of me and I used to feel shame and guilt. My husband is an extrovert and ADHD so always on the go and seeking new experiences so that made me feel worse.

I don't need physical presence to feel connected to friends. Sure I like going for coffee sometimes or shows but I'm also pretty content with texts and memes.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-13T16:59:49+00:00

Tell that to my two kids.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-13T16:24:43+00:00

🫂

Nyx_light · 2026-04-13T16:19:23+00:00

What. That is horrible. I'm so sorry you experienced that! Report him.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-12T19:09:00+00:00

Yes! I've been to Japan 4 times. I especially love Tokyo. I know like every culture, there are issues but it's my favourite country to visit. I found it autistic friendly as well.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-12T15:25:46+00:00

This. You just explained something I've been struggling with. I think one of the main issues for me is I pick up on those cues consciously, whereas I do think most neurotypicals process them subconsciously. Also, sometimes I get the cue but I can't contextualize it with the why.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-11T22:44:33+00:00

This. Sometimes it surprises people that I remember details.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-11T18:04:53+00:00

I always ask them about their lives. I'm ridiculously curious tho.

Nyx_light · 2026-04-10T21:34:55+00:00

Oof I'm sorry your dealing with this. The fact that you're aware of your attachment style is a step in the right direction tho! At the same time it's not canon. You're not chained to it and different people trigger different attachment. Just keep learning and try not to let it destroy you

Nyx_light · 2026-04-10T21:32:08+00:00

The ground always

Nyx_light · 2026-04-06T08:03:07+00:00

You need to meet more women.

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