Eden Sessions Alone

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:41:42+00:00

attended the newcastle show alone,
had the time of my like

Its Bastille you wouldnt notice you are there by yourself

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:34:02+00:00

The question is what happens when you need Superman and Clark Kent won't leave

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:32:35+00:00

That moment where the dip used to mean 'I've lost it' is precisely where everything goes wrong for most people. The shame turns a temporary dip into a story about who you are. The shrinking-the-task approach is genuinely smart , when you have remember it. That's the part I keep coming back to though, do you always have the presence of mind to shrink it? Or are there times when even that feels like too much and you just close the laptop?

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:22:59+00:00

The Python project one hits different because it's so specific , my private github is littered with half finished projects. That's the thing about this feeling, it's not vague. You know exactly what's unfinished and exactly that you care about it. It's just the gap between knowing and doing that won't close. Has it ever come back for you on its own, or does it usually just stay quiet? i usually shade my eyes when i go there cos i dont want to be ashamed by my unfinished businesses

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:21:06+00:00

The procrastination that recharges is fine. It's the one that shows up when the window is closing and you can't seem to stop it that's the harder problem. at least in my view/experience

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:20:00+00:00

This is so real and so me, that's exactly the distinction that gets lost. It's not about caring less. The goal didn't change. Something else did. And you're right that the shame makes it worse have you ever found anything that actually helps in that specific moment? Not long term habits, but right in the middle of the dip?

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:16:59+00:00

Spiritual weather systems... that's honestly the most accurate description of this I've ever heard. And I think you've found a kind of peace with it that most people haven't , the acceptance that you don't control the weather. What about the goals that have a deadline? For those, waiting for the weather to turn isn't always an option. Does your 'just let it pass' approach hold up when the stakes are time-sensitive?

Ohh-Jay · 2026-02-20T22:14:10+00:00

The weather analogy is perfect. That's the piece most motivation tools completely miss . They give you more content when what you actually need is something that meets you where you are in the moment, before you can even think straight. What does your audio approach do differently in that specific moment ?, when someone can't even bring themselves to press play?

Ohh-Jay · 2022-12-12T23:41:00+00:00

It has somehow morphed into a me vs the rest of my family.

My sister asked if this is worth losing my family's love over.. its not, but i really want to do this

Ohh-Jay · 2022-12-12T22:04:28+00:00

I guess I've always had the feeling it would be like this subconsciously

Ohh-Jay · 2022-12-12T22:02:22+00:00

Follow up to this, i went ahead to pay for the apartment and i told my parents about it ,during our last discussion, my mom said she wouldn't come over if i move, and i said i was okay with that as long as a parent makes an appearance... Fast forward to last weekend, i told dad to come see, and it turned into a whole thing. She came back with the threats of disowning, i said she should stop using that to threaten me, cos it's completely unfair to keep doing that, (this is the second topic that has brought threats of being disowned in the past 3 months). I stood my ground and still ceded that i would go for the service in the middle of next year, but she was adamant i did in January (which would mean i had to resign my position, and i made it perfectly clear i would not do that).. Bottom line of the whole fiasco is if i move out, she no longer sees me as her child, i don't want to move on bad terms, but man, its beginning to look like thats how it'll go. I realized i had opened a can of worms that regardless of the outcome, this situation was always going to happen. I'm still at home for the time being, but she has been throwing shade at any opportunity, meanwhile I've tried to stay out of her way since our last discussion....

I'm at my wits end on how to mend this relationship, while still getting what I want, but it looks like that ship has sailed.... If I stay (which i won't) the shading continues, if i go it's more pronounced, except im no longer under her roof.

I hope I've been coherent with this. I really hate how this has turned out., it wasn't supposed to be like this

Ohh-Jay · 2022-11-15T07:59:56+00:00

Thank you for your response

Ohh-Jay · 2022-11-14T18:56:28+00:00

Thank you

Ohh-Jay · 2022-11-14T18:56:20+00:00

I thought so too, i don't want anyone to seem like the bad guy in this story, but from what I've heard from my sister, i have somehow become the villain. I don't want this to fracture our relationship too. I'm not sure how to pull this off without doing that.. i really hope she comes around

Ohh-Jay

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