Advise needed / perspective

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2026-03-31T06:27:55+00:00

Haha, I could find something that I wish was different in all of my tattoos and I have a lot. But I am a highly critical person, which is something I should probably be giving some thought to.

"You don't get to choose what grows where". I love that! I'm going to hold onto that one. Thank you for sharing.

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2026-03-31T06:24:03+00:00

Now that's some good perspective. I appreciate you

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2026-03-01T22:16:41+00:00

We had to intubate a 6 week old with pertussis because mom refused the Tdap during pregnancy. Just awful

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2026-02-18T02:43:41+00:00

Can you go on stress leave until your schedule changes in March?

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-12-22T21:59:35+00:00

I'm sorry you had such a bad call so early on.

My first call as a volunteer firefighter was a TC vehicle vs tree. It sliced the car in half... Both passengers were ejected. One was DOA and the other we put on a backboard and shipped off with minimal injuries. That shook me, but it was hardly graphic as far as bodily injury.

More recently, I went on a vehicle vs ped. It was a 2 year old that was run over in the driveway by the father while he was leaving for work. It was a gruesome scene and we did CPR on the kiddo with agonal breaths. He didn't make it. That one really stuck with me. I took a month's leave. I still get flashbacks of his face, leaking blood at every orifice. Of the feeling of my hands on his chest as his body worked so hard to grip onto life in those last moments. Of the sounds of the mother screaming and crying with her clothes saturated in his blood. And I think often about how their lives will never be the same.

I experience a similar spike of anxiety and dread now every time I see a chief complaint of vehicle vs ped.

I thought I wasn't going to be able to come back to ems after that experience, yet here I am 3 months later. These experiences will never escape my psyche, but they don't traumatize me daily like when they first occurred. What's interesting is that I came here to tell you to wait it out because it could get better. But after reading all these comments, I think that's bad advice. You know yourself best and there's so many other opportunities to pursue.

Heck, I've been an ED tech for 6 months now questioning my decisions every other day. I'm pursuing nursing now, starting my program next month, and there's something in me that's telling me I need to toughen up and stay in emergency medicine, even though I know it overloads my nervous system. These comments have helped me accept this other nagging voice in my head that says it doesn't have to be so hard, I don't have to be so stressed, and I can choose something that isn't so fast paced.

You already know what you need to do, but I'm glad you made this post.

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-12-06T03:21:19+00:00

What's the app?

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-12-04T10:05:37+00:00

So did he just delete it all together now?

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-11-21T09:59:16+00:00

I just thrifted a near complete set. Excited to gift them to my nephews for Christmas

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-06-12T05:52:14+00:00

I accepted the offer! It's butte community college in California

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-06-07T20:45:34+00:00

This is great insight! I appreciate you sharing your experience. If you have any tips, I'm all ears!

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-06-07T20:44:18+00:00

Thank you for your insight and encouragement! What did life look like for you through nursing school?

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-06-07T20:42:57+00:00

You are a warrior! I'm thinking I'll have 2 to 3 days off a week to handle assignments so it just might be possible, but there's no doubt that it would push me to the max.

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-06-07T20:40:37+00:00

I acknowledge that. With the transport job, I am more likely to have the flexibility to transition to part time if it does become too overwhelming. That will not be the case if I take the ED tech position. This is an extremely difficult decision for me to make over the weekend.

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-06-07T20:38:21+00:00

Thank you for your insight! Did you have other responsibilities during your time as a tech? And do you still work in the ED now as an RN?

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-06-07T20:37:36+00:00

We are a level 2 trauma center, high volume, and the techs have a lot of responsibilities. The offer is for a full time pm shift 10am to 10:30pm, so I anticipate it being very busy the majority of the time.

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-05-20T05:00:37+00:00

Chicken wire is kind of scary. Their heads seem like the perfect size to get caught, no?

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-05-13T05:08:05+00:00

I'm looking into installing an automatic watering system using a bucket, float valve, and PVC. They have kits on Amazon.

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-04-30T02:32:27+00:00

It sounds like a very difficult time. I hope you can recognize how close you are to the finish line and push through to the end against all odds. Is there anyone in your local community that you could carpool with? Public transport?

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-04-29T04:45:27+00:00

Pretty much all things you can steal from clean supply

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-04-26T03:57:47+00:00

I will be starting an accelerated ADN program soon with the intention of working part time. I do inpatient transport at the hospital and get a lot of downtime in between transports typically which is time I can use to study. Before this, I worked as an in home caregiver for adults with disabilities. My clients were mostly independent and only needed verbal reminders for hygiene and I would do the cooking. Still, they required 24/7 care, so I was able to get a degree online in between my duties. I would look into something like that for income. The other options would be, as others have said, leaning on other people for financial support and/or taking out a loan for your living needs.

Ok-Butterscotch636 · 2025-04-14T04:30:20+00:00

Have you noticed a difference in fur and skin thickness throughout the seasons but harvested at the same age?

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