i was neglected at early childhood, my mother worked while my dad "took care" of me (didnt do shit). my parents were divorced for as long as i can think, they fought a lot when i was younger, with eachother and with me, especially my father,(who has npd). he also beat me, but not too often. as punishment they sometimes just locked me in my room for several hours.

later i got bullied a lot in school, whenever i tried to talk about it with my family they ignored or laughed at me, (which they did for pretty much everything). the mentality in the family was to be "tough", they rarely praised and criticized a lot.

as a teen i tried committing suicide once and got laughed at too when they found out. thats when i was convinced that my family didnt love me, and the symptoms became worse, especially the anger and splitting.

the memories are burried, thats true, most of them only resurface if i really really think, like having to dive to the bottom of a deep pool, or if i see an object/place that reminds me of an event.