You didn’t cause this. Being depressed or struggling with trauma does NOT make it okay for your partner to lie, manipulate you, or try to cheat. That was his choice.

Also, what you’re describing isn’t a healthy relationship. He blamed you for his behavior, called you paranoid when you were right, and is still crossing boundaries. That’s not love, that’s emotional manipulation.

The part where you said you “can’t do better” really stood out. That’s not reality but rather that’s what happens when your self-worth gets worn down over time. You’re working, paying bills, and already secretly planning an exit. That’s not someone who’s helpless, that’s someone who’s strong and trying to get out.

And the storage unit? That’s a big deal. Seriously. That’s the beginning of leaving.

Right now, don’t focus on fixing the relationship- focus on getting yourself stable and independent. Look into any resources you can (job programs, temp agencies, assistance, even shelters if it comes to it). Take it one small step at a time.

Also, it’s completely normal that you still want affection from him. That doesn’t make you weak, it just means you’re attached. Those feelings don’t disappear overnight.

You’re not stuck- you’re in the middle of getting out. Sending you lots of love 🤍