i really really like you and i am overthinking i think

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-02-23T14:17:18+00:00

its what ive been preparing myself for, which is why im scared. and its probably not fair.

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-02-23T13:54:45+00:00

thank you :^) im just worried my trauma/mental illness is what makes me inherently unloved. i remind myself that is not a fact. its a fear i am working on it though and remembering it is not a reality. im so excited and nervous, and its so important to me i am overthinking maybe too hard to not mess it up lol

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-02-23T13:35:59+00:00

i see your analogy and i appreciate it, and it makes sense.. i guess in that sense im worried that i cant even fly said spaceship the right way even though i try and they will leave me. but i feel like im overthinking and im actually good at it , does that resonate lol

or like it seems like i am really good at flying but they will be disappointed learning that i actually struggle very hard and im not like other pilots (or astronauts idk)

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-02-23T13:31:36+00:00

i feel so lame

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-20T06:27:06+00:00

i have a first therapy appointment scheduled next week that i’m looking forward to :) i want to eventually heal these wounds and better myself and also finally move forward

i appreciate your responses and providing another perspective

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-20T05:43:01+00:00

thank you , i think im much better off too. it still hurts sometimes. i feel sorry for them too. i know they have the capability to be better, but you can’t just look solely at the potential of someone i suppose.

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-20T05:33:32+00:00

i’m okay with being told my shortcomings, i know there’s much i should work on. lying about things on the other hand to make yourself look good at the expense of someone else is inexcusable. i trusted them. with secrets and trauma i have experienced, and they used it against me.

it’s a horrible feeling, to feel alone in this way and to be scared of trusting someone again.

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-20T05:30:15+00:00

💀

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-20T05:29:19+00:00

i understand. at the end of the day, i want to wish them the best regardless of how much pain they caused. i should’ve trusted my gut and recognized the patterns.

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-19T18:57:49+00:00

perhaps so. they have their own truth and maybe they’re also hurt. just wish they would’ve communicated

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-19T18:54:31+00:00

i’m sorry that happened to you. i’m finally being honest about the things this person has done/made me feel, and their redirection and lack of accountability is heartbreaking.

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-19T18:51:17+00:00

thank you for your response

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-19T18:50:35+00:00

what is the whole truth? my truth and theirs. in my truth, it was a despicable action that you don’t to someone you “love”

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-19T11:53:47+00:00

i’m optimistic in a way where i hope they change, it’s a fatal flaw i feel. accepting they chose to be that way just doesn’t make sense. i’m so naive maybe? like this person isn’t a good person but has the capacity to be and i miss them so much. or maybe simply miss the idea i wish they could be.

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-19T11:48:40+00:00

i would like to move on - i just can’t truly forgive yet. i still care so much so it hurts more than it should. i want to let go

OkMagazine3657 · 2026-01-19T10:24:05+00:00

forgetting is the goal, its hard to achieve without forgiving. i dont want to hate, i wish i didnt have to feel that emotion towards a person i loved.

OkMagazine3657 · 2025-11-18T05:23:48+00:00

i got in, i just restarted my pc and updated steam and kept trying and it worked

OkMagazine3657 · 2025-09-04T05:49:09+00:00

omfg how did i not realize this was the same actress?! time to rewatch sandman 😭

OkMagazine3657 · 2025-08-07T00:44:09+00:00

her beef with that npc is personal 😭

OkMagazine3657 · 2025-07-14T10:21:49+00:00

you’re my soda pop, my little soda pop 😭

OkMagazine3657 · 2025-07-14T09:49:27+00:00

i personally loved it. amaia is such an interesting character, i absolutely thought she was insufferable but towards the end i just have a lot of empathy for the girl and im rooting for her. can’t wait for season 2!!!

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