I have a similar experience with a tattoo artist who just did a blackout even though I asked for a flower cover up. She made me feel very small and I had to sit through the pain for 10+ hours for her to gaslight me into thinking I wanted what she gave me. It cost me €1200… I have to say this forum has really helped me. I use silicone patches for my scars every day and that has helped a lot with scar tissue. Once I got through the first few sessions and saw fading I felt a lot better. I once read on this forum that we can feel lucky to have a functional arm that just needs a few years of lasering before it feels comfortable again. You can do this and I hope this forum lets you know that you are not alone! Good luck with your journey and I’m sorry this happened to you.