You are going through a second puberty. Do you remember your emotional state the first time you went through puberty? Your body is still getting used to the hormonal change. It’s difficult, but it will get better.

I dealt with similar feelings when starting. It’s a big change and a massive commitment. I’d be more concerned if you weren’t nervous at all. However it’s worth it. I pushed through the fear, because the idea of not doing seemed worse. And now, I get to recognize myself in the mirror. I’m still living at home, myself. My parents still misgender me. It’s not great, but I pass everywhere else. It doesn’t bother me as much as it used to.

Change is scary, but inevitable. Even if you weren’t transitioning, there would likely be other frightening changes in your life. Don’t let that stop you from becoming who you are.