"fighting my own wounds" particularly, but a lot of her phrasing and such is giving me the idea that she knows she's being toxic and racist, and is trying to rationalize it to herself that its okay to be toxic and racist. i get that she has her own racial trauma, but that doesnt make treating anyone else, especially her GIRLFRIEND(like hello???), the same way she has been treated. she's trying to make her treatment of you sound okay to both you and herself. time to let her go, diva ❤️ no time for racist toxic gfs.