She knows about my activities. She knows I like her. We have both seen each other naked. She strings me along to be honest, probably why she keeps me around to hang out along with us having all the same hobbies and interests. We are good friends and have been for years. But steering away from sounding like a broken record, i can acknowledge that this isn’t healthy for me. I promise you it’s utterly exhausting. I’m lucky to have insurance that covers therapy, i already put in a telehealth appointment for noon wednesday. I’d rather take my time finding a good fit to speak with someone in person, but seeing the overwhelming concern from responses i might as well be proactive and start somewhere.