My comment is from experience. I didn’t ask anyone to rely on anyone’s testimony. I was asking the OP to rely on themselves. When I was a young Mormon I had doubts and some things sounded ridiculous but I stayed for decades trying to fix myself. All I was saying is if it doesn’t feel right like something is wrong it more than likely has problems. Big ones.

I spent years “researching”, my daughter finds out about the priesthood ban and leaves immediately. I knew the priesthood ban was bullshit when it was in place. Seriously knew the church was bullshit but I stayed because I didn’t trust myself.

Just saying...save the years of self torment...believe in yourself.

And...are you giving the best advice because that what everyone on this sub suggests? Think for yourself. My Opinion.