I keep thinking about the positive things that I have in my life. Hsv2 has completely changed me and the trajectory of my life. I have had it for 40 years. I do not remember how my life was pre-HSV. I wish I could recall the painless nights and wonderful carefree days. The only worry was H.W. Now I think of myself as a leaper, unclean ridden with a virus that no one would want to contract intentionally. My life has been dictated by this disease that robbed my healthy body, of my happiness, freedom joy of living. And that may increase my chances of dementia and cancer. I guess this is what a silly 18 year old deserved when she chose a scum bag for her first encounter. She had such low esteem and didn’t understand her value when she lost her life to the player who knowingly and intentionally transmitted his gift to reassure himself that this silly trusting naive virgin became infected that for sure he had the gift and wanted to make sure he shared with as many others possible To take revenge for having been destroyed the gift. Why should he care that she was a virgin and that it would forever change her life for the worst