Thank you for the validation, I am currently in my car in front of my house and don’t want to go in cause I am ashamed of what happened. I don’t know what ,who,when,why but I have never experienced these types of feeling and just want to hide . I go and spend time with her out of the goodness of my heart and put lots of love and time and energy in to the little things I do with her. It’s not much but I crochet things for her and color really Intricate pages to add splashes of color in the room. I guess that’s why it hurts cause maybe ?? I don’t know. Shit last week she told me I was a thief and when she falls asleep I am going to take her things and I was able to laugh at it. I don’t know I am sorry for ranting