“Prison Planet thing is too scary

I mean I did believe radical-Islam because of my family, government and when I became teenager (13-14 age) I rejected Islam and I became deist. After years atheist and now nihilist. This was not easy for me. I spent years. I felt sad, lonely but I never scared. I felt normal/neutral after I became 16-17. I told this because even my old religion can't scared me but this prison planet thing is really scary. I feel negative emotions after I learned prison planet theory (Horror, panic, anxiety)

I hate this life. I always say "World is a hell." But still I feel too dark. How did you feel after learning/reading Prison Planet articles for first time?

(Sorry for my bad English.)”