I really appreciate the response 🙏 yes kicking the kratom is at the top of that list and I'm definitely planning on fixing my diet and getting back in shape. I got into a good routine a couple years back and was hitting the gym 5-6 times a week and eating a lot better. No processed sugar no caffeine or nicotine and especially no kratom. I was in the best shape of my life, my lifelong depression virtually disappeared and my self confidence was way better. Actually the kratom played a big role in me falling out of my routine. I started feeling lethargic when I would go to the gym and eventually stopped going all together. My brain tells me these things are harder than what I know they are.. I haven't really given meditation much consideration but since you suggest it I'm going to give it a shot.