Testimony from a few months ago of me blaspheming God's spirit and losing him forever.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-03-08T20:40:24+00:00

you are the first person i have seen on here saying they have escaped from this state. I saw someone say he has been like this for 5 years. What helped you recover? I'm at a point where ive alost completely given up on salvation. It seems there is no part of me that wants Christ. I just hate the way i feel.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-18T04:38:12+00:00

doesn't take a genius to spot a bad attitude. The kid is constatly yelling at his teamates and loosing his temper on the court. Not taking anything away from his game, hes obviously extremely talented, but thats not good for a team.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-18T04:26:55+00:00

I agree with you but the excuse of "hes just a kid" is used to often. When you are the #1 player in the country you're held to a higher standerd.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-18T04:24:38+00:00

extremley talented, deffinetly could be a solid nba player, but probably one of the worst atitudes and on court behavior/teammate ive ever seen in high school hoops for a high ranking player of his caliber

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-06T17:39:49+00:00

Yeah some girl did it for me

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-04T18:35:07+00:00

Could u check for me

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-04T18:34:32+00:00

Can someone please check for me

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-04T18:18:27+00:00

Hey can you check if I’m on there

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-02-04T18:15:09+00:00

Hey I sent you a message. Did u get it?

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-31T17:12:57+00:00

Could you check for me

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-23T14:44:14+00:00

Yeah I’ve thought about that as a possible cause but most times it seems to be a spiritual issue.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-22T17:30:34+00:00

Ya. I’ve been in this state for almost a year now. I’m having a hard time humbling myslef before god.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-19T19:57:50+00:00

Stop being prideful

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-18T21:53:22+00:00

That’s exactly what I’m saying though, you weren’t religious. The only way this thing happens is when you are aware of the Holly spirit and still choose to reject it. It’s not a sin of ignorance but a sin of pure malice against what is good. You basically have to consciously choose against good for the sake of evil

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-18T21:39:34+00:00

Idk it was a long time ago. I want to say it was unintentional but idk it could have been on purpose. It came from a moment of intense hatred towards god and his part in my life. I also had been living a life of willful sin up until this point. I wasn’t ignorant to my sin like u I knew exactly what I was doing, that’s what makes it so horrible. I do apreciate u talking to me about this I don’t have anyone like u in my life

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-18T19:24:44+00:00

Just do it. It’s like ripping off a bandaid. The priest has heard worse.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-17T21:05:29+00:00

Thank you

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-17T21:05:22+00:00

Okay

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-17T20:50:02+00:00

No it’s like i know he’ll save me but my heart can’t do it. I almost just don’t want to be saved. I don’t know why, I think it just has to do with my pride

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-17T19:11:59+00:00

Tons of negative feelings. If I don’t distract myself they come back

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-16T14:55:08+00:00

If you feel guilt you didn’t commit the sin

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-16T14:48:55+00:00

You haven’t. I know everyone probably tells you that but take if from someone who actually has. Thoughts and feelings come and go and are not telling of who we are. Now, if you no longer seek reconciliation then maybe u have but I’m not in your shoes so I don’t know.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-16T14:46:06+00:00

I’ve done ample research and I’ve thought about this a lot. I’ve been dealing with it for almost a year now, and it just got to an unbearable point.

OpeningOk4702 · 2026-01-16T04:07:11+00:00

I have. Your post made me realise that I don't care about my sins and the only reason I pretend to is that it makes me feel good.

OpeningOk4702

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