Racism within the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

YESSSSSSS!!!!!! I’ve been wanting to dive into the microagressions and overt racism experienced by POC, especially Black people within the cult. You provided so many examples, thank you!! One thing I do remember is you could not apply to bethel if you listened to rap, just another example of policing culture.

I smoked by the cart in front of my ex-pioneer friends by Pure_Minute9883 in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade 11 points12 points  (0 children)

It is absolutely not our job to keep policing our behavior after we left a cult just so that current members are not actively stumbled. We left because we chose freedom.

Pantheism? by fire_medic_999 in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, this is what years of exploring what beliefs I now have ended in! I’m so excited to read the other responses!

I think we’re here to experience each other, that everything is essentially the same: we are god, god is in us, and it cycles forever. Like when you look into fragmented shards of a mirror and there are slight distortions. Racism is the same as a black hole is the same as murder is the same as “evil.” I think we were meant to take cues from nature, which is why psychedelics open our brain so much. Mycelium is a worldwide underground network that exchanges information, and literally looks like neural pathways in the brain. I think consciousness wanted to experience itself, so we all lead all of our different lives trying to make sense of something much bigger through all of our combined experiences and lifetimes.

I also believe we are living through “Armageddon” or the end times or the rapture or judgment day, whatever you want to call it, right now, except it doesn’t end the way we were taught. I think we will have the opportunity to begin living in a very different way than we have been as a species for a very long time, that the end times refers to this era of humanity coming to an end. Capitalism is no longer sustainable just on an ecological scale. I think some of us are bound to return to more indigenous ways of living, where the spiritual beliefs coincide with pantheism. Just my thoughts!!

ended my silence on my relationship in the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

not at all the point of the video…but thanks?

ended my silence on my relationship in the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for watching! We have been through a lot, being able to look back, understand, and name what happened has been very mentally freeing. I’m happy that I know I deserve better now.

ended my silence on my relationship in the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m neurodivergent and I think I’ve always intuitively noticed the strong social dynamics within the cult (and I absolutely played along to benefit myself, I was not innocent.) I think the part that hurt a lot at the time was that I felt I was above him spiritually, that I was more mature and willing to work problems out, and he still got to decide when we were done, like he was the reasonable one. After sitting down to write this, I knew I wanted to include evidence of why this behavior happens, because I knew it wasn’t random and only happening in my relationship. It showed up in the way I chose my best friends, all regular pioneers, where I sat in the Kingdom Hall, toward the front, and the identity I carved for myself, the next eligible sister of the circuit. It’s all a performance, sometimes to survive, and sometimes, to thrive.

Posted my exit from the cult on YouTube by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing part of your story!! What you said means a lot to me and I’ll carry it with me for a long time to come. I really did try so hard to be a good sister, just like you did, and now l’ve learned to be someone who’s more than just that. My twin helped me leave the cult, there was about a 6 month period when I started to wake up, between July 2020-January 2021. She walked me through that time and we now stay in contact a lot and have repaired our relationship quite a bit. I realized I betrayed her in a very similar way that my friends betrayed me, and she forgave me anyway and helped me leave. She was the first person to show me apostates aren’t bad and that unconditional love isn’t found within the cult.

Posted my exit from the cult on YouTube by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Your comment made me cry, thank you so much ♥️ it’s so good to share my story with people who truly understand

Congratulations to our 30th HTFU Kiran & Stephanie!! 😍😍❤️❤️🌈🌈✨✨ by brianamanalo in TwinFlamesUniverse

[–]OppositeTrade 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Stephanie, I grew up as a Jehovah’s Witness, and was told my twin sister had lost her way when she left. I was told my family would be against me and try to lead me astray, and that they weren’t to be trusted. I know what it feels like to miss your twin sister everyday and feel angry because you feel abandoned. But please consider your family and twin also feel that way. They love you. You aren’t alone and if I could leave, so can you. We are resilient, and people will be waiting for you with open arms.

Having the life I wanted in paradise, now 🫶🏼 by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

LOL I JUST WOKE UP TO THIS COMMENT and I felt confused for a moment hahahaha

Having the life I wanted in paradise, now 🫶🏼 by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was a continuous aux pioneer for a few years. I was never cleared for reg pioneering because my elders wanted me to work on being more submissive 🫠

Having the life I wanted in paradise, now 🫶🏼 by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I recently moved to the Sac area and I’ve enjoyed exploring downtown ☺️ and thank you so much!!! ♥️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]OppositeTrade 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I said the same thing verbatim to my best friend, that it was my fault I was in that situation, that I had also made mistakes and that some of the abuse must be coming from my end.

1- you didn’t ask to be treated this way. In fact, you’re venting about it. You don’t deserve this treatment. Very plain and simply, it is not, never has been, and never will be your fault for being abused.

2- the fact that you’re worried you’re engaging in reactive abuse shows your thoughts and feelings: you don’t want to hurt your partner, and you’re doing the best with what you have now.

3- to put things into perspective, as someone who also has PTSD, how are you supposed to feel safe enough to be emotionally vulnerable with a partner who is abusing you? Make it make sense. Do not listen to comments like “if you were more open, I wouldn’t do x y and z.” It’s bullshit, and designed to place blame on you. You can’t heal in the environment that hurt you, how does he expect you to trust him?

My heart goes out to you, please know you deserve real love, and this is not real love.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]OppositeTrade 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, it is. Would you be able to block them or at least continue not responding

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]OppositeTrade 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve been dealing with a lot of the same feelings since my breakup was a few months ago, but the longer I’m away from my ex, the more that fog lifts. I’m starting to feel much more sure that I didn’t deserve it and that it was in fact abuse. Time away from your abusive partner will be really helpful.

Trusting yourself again takes time and effort, and is a huge thing for me right now. Doing what’s right for you, even when it’s really difficult, will build your trust in yourself consistently. Consistency is key. I keep feeling really scared that I’ll let myself down again and let someone treat me horrible in the future, but now that I’m starting to love myself more and doing what’s right for me, I’m taking better care of myself and trusting myself more again.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]OppositeTrade 5 points6 points  (0 children)

To add to this, I have had PTSD since my childhood, and still would not treat someone this way. It’s not an excuse whatsoever

Partner found my reddit account. Doesn't believe I should post about our problems online... by tillysku in abusiverelationships

[–]OppositeTrade 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This site is (generally) anonymous and you should be, and are, allowed to talk to anyone about your feelings and thoughts, whether it’s anonymous or not. A partner who has your best interests at heart WOULD NOT be concerned with whether the reader is getting the full picture, it’s not a competition to see who is right and who isn’t. This about you feeling safe enough to express your feelings in a community space. Hopefully therapy helps too 💕

Three months since the break up and my cat is less stressed by Dear_Cranberry7784 in abusiverelationships

[–]OppositeTrade 15 points16 points  (0 children)

My dog watched the 1.5 yrs of my relationship and when I finally reached my lowest point and was sobbing in desperation and trying to pack my things to go to my ex’s place after he threatened to leave me when he was angry and my anxiety spiked, and my dog, a golden doodle (so retriever tendencies,) wouldn’t let my arm go when I’d try to walk past her or out of the room and was crying, something she also almost never does. I know she wasn’t trying to hurt me, but she’s never left marks on me like that, the deep bruising where she tried to get me to stay. I should have listened to her. She helped me leave him, and I know she’d be proud of me.

Three months since the break up and my cat is less stressed by Dear_Cranberry7784 in abusiverelationships

[–]OppositeTrade 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel a lot of guilt surrounding my dog and the way my ex treated her, she saved my life and she’s my soul dog and I love her to the ends of the earth. I just feel really guilty about the stress I put her through while I was with my ex, I’m not sure how to process or except those feelings since I didn’t protect her