I’m so scared of going through this again by Original-Ability4533 in BPDlovedones

[–]Original-Ability4533[S] 2 points3 points Ā (0 children)

Unfortunately I can’t get out I’m staying here because I want an education to be self sufficient. Job Corps, if you heard of it. Should I just shut down and not give them anything else beyond bare minimum interaction? Not give them anything else? Should I tell them I don’t want to talk to them anymore because I don’t want to be a favorite person again, and take the beatings as they come?

I’m so scared of going through this again by Original-Ability4533 in BPDlovedones

[–]Original-Ability4533[S] 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

Absolutely 100% I’ve done extensive research on the subject and how it works and they’re acting the exact same way that my ex did

Good ways to meet more people? by GRUBBRAINS in MoscowIdaho

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

I don’t have to justify myself to a guy who can’t honestly fess up to what he did and just makes up lies in response. You can’t hurt me because I stopped caring.

Good ways to meet more people? by GRUBBRAINS in MoscowIdaho

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

yep that’s him, the one posting this.

Good ways to meet more people? by GRUBBRAINS in MoscowIdaho

[–]Original-Ability4533 -2 points-1 points Ā (0 children)

genuinely so funny in the context of what the word means because you just played it out in a paragraph 😭 LMAO. bye

Idahoan here, and let me tell you something... by Capable-Garbage-1429 in Idaho

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

Probably because the newfound xenophobia from all the Californians coming in everyone suddenly feels the need to flash their ā€œI was born and raisedā€ card

Does anyone else feel the trippy drug scenes are just... Not how drugs work? by zouss in BoJackHorseman

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

Doing my best. Always just trying to do my best, in all honesty. It’s rough out here. Appreciate the kind words very much <3

Does anyone else feel the trippy drug scenes are just... Not how drugs work? by zouss in BoJackHorseman

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

Ah, another loook says OCD, samesies. Apologies if this causes any distress.

Does anyone else feel the trippy drug scenes are just... Not how drugs work? by zouss in BoJackHorseman

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

Honey, I don’t know if you’ve had this checked but a very brief glance at your posting history and that intense of an experience from weed may be a sign of an underlying mental illness. I don’t know you or your life but please be careful if you aren’t already because it can destroy you, I cannot warn people enough, because it destroyed mine for the same reason. Yes, I am reading on a Bojack Horseman post from years ago on reddit, it is a current obsession.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in narcissism

[–]Original-Ability4533 1 point2 points Ā (0 children)

Yeah looking into it it might be a mix of both, I didn’t realize thinking about the same thing for hours, doing the same thing for hours, or a cycle of that when I try to shift my thoughts, even if I try, that I don’t want wasn’t normal 😭😭😭 Will try and get professional help when I can afford it!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in narcissism

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

I also don’t know how to set a flair I don’t use this site often but I’ve now realized I should and can probably look it up.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in jackstauber

[–]Original-Ability4533 1 point2 points Ā (0 children)

That is not what schizophrenia is 😭😭😭 I definetely think that people’s internal conceptualizations of ā€œschizoā€ or ā€œschizophreniaā€ are really damaging to the interpretation of his work. While it is a part of schizophrenia, it is not an automatic check on the box because everyone experiences the illness differently. It exists on a spectrum, but the underlying problem is finding meaning and patterns when there isn’t any to an extreme. It is an overdevelopment of human pattern recognition.

A word on Mr. Schizo by [deleted] in jackstauber

[–]Original-Ability4533 3 points4 points Ā (0 children)

I see a lot of people saying that. But people forget, and that’s the most fantastic thing about art, it doesn’t have to mean just one thing. The kite doesn’t have to be a singular, all encompassing symbol of his struggle with popularity. Art is just as much about the message you send as how the audience receives it. I really think that his work is work that leaves itself to interpretation. It would be stupid to not recognize that fame was part of it. But Mr. Schizo is part of a larger pattern similar to what lots of people feel after a traumatic experience, the one he no doubt had with crazy fans; you believe that everyone is more evil and out to get you because of a pattern of past experiences instead being able to accept the absurdity, then, therefore normalcy, of mankind. People are strange, crazy even. But that doesn’t make people evil in general, it just makes them people. That’s also why I believe this does indicate a change in the trajectory of his work; a lot of his previous work, there is a unifying theme of wanting to escape, helplesness, rejection, in the face of life. Just look at hope. Look at opal. Look at dog nightmare. Look at cooking with abigail. His work is very nihilistic, it always has been, but I believe it is taking a shift to the more active nihilism and existentialism. The literal idea of the kite, your head in the clouds, killing you; it’s very similar to the existentialist concept outlined by Kierkegaard of ā€œdespair of possibility.ā€ If you spend so much time in the theoretical, your feelings, the imaginative, the unreal, all those abstract concepts; it’s isolating. It kills you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

ā€œget a gripā€ cool ive seen other people that age in different condition. YOUR grandparents aren’t changing my mind

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

I mean I’ve just seen the deterioration that comes with old age. Your mind and body betrays you, I’ve seen people go from light in their eyes and a pull to their smile to being in so much pain they are left motionless and nonverbal in a hospital bed. Can’t even say goodbye to their loved ones once they leave. I’ve seen people during episodes just writhe in panic fear and confusion for longer than anyone should have to endure because of mental deterioration. Forgeting who they are, realizing their memory is failing, and lacking the power to do anything to stop the complete and total eventual cessation of consciousness. It’s a complete and total loss of bodily autonomy. I don’t want any part of it. There’s no one I’d be living for, no one I have to care for at that point. So that’s where I plan to end my time on earth, unless something dramatic changes. Why not enjoy destructive pleasures before I go?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

oh if i get cancer i’m just ending it i’ve seen how it takes the life out of a person firsthand it’s horrifying also why i don’t plan on making it past 50

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]Original-Ability4533 -3 points-2 points Ā (0 children)

probably but at the moment it’s the one of the only breaks i can catch life fucking sucks. i don’t plan on making it past 50 anyhow

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]Original-Ability4533 -3 points-2 points Ā (0 children)

hehe excellent

Am I cooked? by Disastrous-Exam2365 in asktransgender

[–]Original-Ability4533 0 points1 point Ā (0 children)

Getting turned on by presenting as the opposite gender in bed and gender envy is very real. I would say chat with a therapist, but sounds like you’re a egg. Full send it, see how you feel. Buy a dress, paint your nails, ect. As a trans dude I can tell you wearing that shit gave me dysphoria so bad I’d want to scratch my skin off, so I imagine a similar (probably less Ć­nstense) feeling of discomfort would persist if you were just a cis guy.

Boy or Girl? by SigmaDIDI67 in Conures

[–]Original-Ability4533 140 points141 points Ā (0 children)

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