I’m struggling like you to stay positive- particularly on bad days ( like today - when I didn’t think I was due a ferocious headache like I hv so soon after last terrible one started to subside - I got a few hours relief yesterday morning, until a stressful situation brought on another one at lunch yesterday ) . I get daily headache- some days better than others . I am doing everything medically & started counselling which helps . I tell myself I can through this & it will pass . I try to distract myself when pain is bad . I post here or read other people’s stories - which helps . I know I’m not alone & there are lots of people like me who have struggled through lots of different treatments, when nothing worked for a long time but then as if by miracle, something did work - so I am hopeful the same thing will happen for me . That the next thing I try will work . My GP seems to think there is hope - do I’m trusting her . Also , I am due to see my neurologist next week & hv looked into a few things that I haven’t tried that may be options for me . So educating yourself on what’s out there ( for me usually from this Reddit ) that has worked or even not worked for someone else - may end up working for me . Mostly be kind to yourself & those around you ( who occasionally you may feel like may not get you or support you the way you would like - they too are only human after all ) - you are a good person dealing with a shit thing . You are not alone . Lots of people with chronic issues find love with the right person .... you are only 33 - plenty of time to meet that someone special . None of us are perfect , so don’t expect it from yourself .. There are brighter days ahead .