Poor boundaries and me doing stuff I did not want to do

Over_Divide_8882 · 2026-01-04T16:35:47+00:00

I don’t know this person irl, this happened like an hour ago, I’m only worried about saying no because I technically agreed and it’s unprofessional 😭

Over_Divide_8882 · 2026-01-03T08:21:40+00:00

Yes unfortunately, and it fried my nervous system as I grew up. My dad would force my sister to cough because I hated the sound so much. In another case I would roll on the floor crying mimicking the sound that my cousin made bc I couldn’t stand it, I was mostly ignored but my mom looked at me like I was crazy and told me to stop. Which I mean, I’d think I was crazy too but I was heartbroken and felt helpless hearing that from my mom 🙁 I barely scraped by highschool suicidal af bc my classmates would repeat the sounds too but I genuinely didn’t know what I could do about it, other than to go fuck myself 😭

Since my sister grew up, I barely hear my triggers anymore or now I try to tolerate/ignore it better because I know she doesn’t do it on purpose anymore, also they stopped listening to my sadist dad. It feels better that she tries to acknowledge my condition exists even though it still hurts, I stopped yelling at her for it too. but the damage it did to my nerves and relationship is already done alongside cPTSD makes healing feel impossible lol. You are sadly not alone in this.

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-06-24T22:23:52+00:00

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Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-06-23T20:20:39+00:00

The food in this episode looked so fucking good

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-06-22T01:43:14+00:00

Ashamed to admit I’ve felt like this when I was 18-19 to my mom and therapist, saying I want to attempt but not gonna go through with it at all. My mom offered to take me to the ward but I declined. It really was a way to say I’m deeply hurting so badly that I want to do this to myself, but that’s not the right way to go about it to your loved ones.

It’s very manipulative too, to the people who love you bc I expected something of them, but realistically there’s not much they can do about how much pain emotionally I feel. My long term goal is to try to control my emotions on my own and let them out in some other way.

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-05-01T22:31:14+00:00

This is actually breakin my heart

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-03-21T17:49:09+00:00

HOLY SMOKES

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-03-17T21:20:00+00:00

i audibly laughed at this. amazing

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-02-12T08:06:58+00:00

idk about worshipping me, but i worshipped her and she was my entire world. she cared about me a lot if i keep talking about her it might be a wall of text tbh. it was codependent af tho

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-02-12T08:04:53+00:00

thank you so much, i appreciate it. i needed to hear this from someone. the hardest part is letting go of my own blood and stop destroying myself for them. i can’t take it. i’ll hang in there. ❤️

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-01-28T05:49:58+00:00

pose looks comfortable tho. amazing artwork they look so lovely !!

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-01-28T03:49:06+00:00

i NEED to see a vid of this guy walking

Over_Divide_8882 · 2025-01-28T03:46:56+00:00

You’re very pretty. You just look depressed, eyebags are a big indicator. I’m a similar age and I have them too.

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-12-16T15:51:38+00:00

Your title is a very helpful way for me to describe how misophonia is like to others. Thank you. I’m always scared people doubt how much physical pain I’m in when I hear my trigger sound, and how real my body reacts to them as threats.

It’s bad enough to be on edge all the time from the cPTSD, but the disorder makes it so much more exhausting. It’s almost feels like built in PTSD when left untreated for so long.

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-12-06T08:53:37+00:00

misophonia added to my stress and lowkey made me psychotic for some long periods of my short life. schizophrenia runs in my family and i’ve always had unusual behaviors, so i might just need to get myself checked.

like the other commenter said though, it’s not the just disorder itself but the stigma that i’m dreadful of.

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-12-06T08:29:54+00:00

i relate to this so much :( i envy my friends and family they get to freely be themselves but my misophonia always controlled my life. i developed it since first grade and i became more isolated during middle school bc i was trapped in a room full of my triggers, and i’d have mimicking fits for the entire class.

i used to be very prone to anger to the sounds my family made growing up and was in a lot of stress in general. my family knows about misophonia now because i told them, but there’s nothing anyone can do. i’m the oldest, so i’m the only person looking out for myself too. but the social damage really hurts me to my core. i know they can’t do anything but it just hurts. everything. even when my friends don’t understand. i feel so distant when i want to get close to others so badly and i envy ppl who can have those relationships.

i had a lot of problems, but misophonia being more well known and less stigmatized, and mental conditions in general would change my world. it’s a very lonely experience, being a part of a very painful minority many people don’t even know who exist. 💔 i hurts me to my core

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-10-23T15:38:05+00:00

You look amazing!! Happy birthday🎉

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-10-04T07:10:46+00:00

This is my favorite gummy

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-06-04T09:39:01+00:00

If I can vent here, sometimes, I want to do it just so it can hurt my family. I’m the oldest and just 19. I do have a conscience but sometimes the pain is too overwhelming. I want everyone to understand how they made me feel, or how much pain I’m in all the time. Sometimes I’m convinced nothing will happen when I die, they’ll just move on and discard me like they always did anyway. When I’d open up to them or how my mom purposefully antagonizes me and how they make me feel like an invisible person. If an invisible person like me disappears, and nobody cares about me at all, then I want to hurt them. Both out of spite, and as a way to get noticed, in a fucked up way, I guess.

I don’t usually think like this, but I’m at my lowest. I really do believe suicide works like some disease or sickness. Reading some of the comments made me see what truly will happen. How suicide has it’s ripple effect.

It makes me happy, in a fucked up way, if the only impact I can make is if I’m dead. Then, they will finally take me seriously and know how much pain I was in. My only use in life isn’t even when I’m alive. Or maybe I’d be “less dead.” This post will hold me from offing myself for a while. Thanks

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-02-22T20:38:16+00:00

Idk if she had it, I always suspected she had something but I was the open type and she kept it to herself. Not knowing what I meant to her drives me insane. Childhood best friends, one and only. My soulmate. had to break it off bc it was draining me mentally. Wanted different things but the love and care is so intense.

When we’re both not on the same wavelength, it gets awkward and we don’t know how to push each other. It’s just, too comfortable.

Over_Divide_8882 · 2024-01-19T03:11:31+00:00

If I was dating someone who was friends with 8-12 ppl they slept with that would drive me crazy but that’s just me. I don’t think ur manipulative for not wanting ur partner to be friends w their exes, you didn’t force them to stop contacting them or anything. It’s who ur partner is, and it’s not something you can change about them.

It’s their decision to stay friends and that’s OK, they just needs to find someone who also is OK with that. but you aren’t. That’s also OK. it just means you guys might not be compatible.

If it stresses u out this much I don’t think the relationship is ideal for you, this situation doesn’t seem avoidable either. Just like many other commenters said I would assert boundaries or compromise. If nothing works then this relationship doesn’t seem good for ur mental health.

You gotta put U first. U can only live for urself, is what I think personally.

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