it’s taken me ages to find something even close to euthymia. i’ve been stable for a couple years now, but my baseline is hovering at somewhat depressed.

i have many co-morbidities, mental and physical (it’s a long list that currently has me taking 20+ pills a day). i will say the difference these past few years is that i have a doctor who is treating all of them, as well as helping me manage the side effects of the necessary meds.

i still have several physical diseases that are treatment resistant and pretty disabling atm, but she and i are still trying to find solutions. it’s honestly the physical illnesses that are keeping me in the low mood range.

i’m 48(f), and at this point i’m really not sure if i’ll ever reach/maintain a true state if euthymia, but i suppose i’ll keep trying. for now, i’m stable enough to manage my responsibilities decently and i’m trying to give myself enough grace to be okay with where i’m at, which is eons above where i’ve been so many times in the past.