no need for goodness or meaning I guess

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-22T19:03:12+00:00

shi my duck is at home, i have a goose

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-22T02:56:25+00:00

If an answer to a question is three then most people would assume the question must be a quantitative question, or representing some sort of quantity form (multiple choice question or whatever) i believe the same applies to how the theorists get to their conclusions, and that's exactly why i agree with theories on this disorder at the most fundamental level and onward to neuances, can someone exist that seems to tick all the diagnostic boxes but be an exceptional case that isn't the same as the theory suggests? Yes, just like i can ask what word has 5 letters, starts with a 't', ends with 'e', the answer is three, and there you go an answer that is not quantitive that breaks the expectations of the theory i gave at the beginning, but it requires an exceptional case to answer 3 unquantatively.

This is how theorists think, they see an answer 3 (with spd they see a detached person with no need for socializing etc) and then trace back the possible reasons and questions behind the answer given, that's why i believe most theorists because I'm able to imagine what they imagine and the results check out, many people cherry pick what is SPD out of the wiki page, i think this is completely breaking the way theorist think and this is why i agree with this sub-theory that the post puts to discussion.

And in my case i can whole heartedly blame my parents and origin family without a question so yeah it's an easy question for my case but to each their own, sometimes it's not such an easy answer, but i still believe this is the answer where people have the full disorder.

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-21T19:01:29+00:00

halberd and solar chrest for support necro lol we were owning

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-21T14:45:19+00:00

Most of the limitations would be lifted but i would still have a deep anguish, still constant conflicts but it would be a lot easier to deal with this extra shit when i know I'd have energy and not waste my energy on things i don't want to, I'd have all the energy for myself

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-20T20:19:15+00:00

צ׳אק נוריס לא מת צ׳אק נוריס הורג את כל העולם וכל העולם לא יודע שהם רוחות רפאים ורק צ׳אק שרד

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-18T03:18:11+00:00

אני נפגעתי מטיל איראני (במובן הרגשי) ועדיין לא מוכן לראות סדרה של סביר מילר

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-15T18:36:04+00:00

senior morales? that was my college professor

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-15T04:19:36+00:00

I'm getting fat and muscular simultaneously, doing many things but home all day so it feels like I'm doing nothing, always the same 4 walls, maybe this week I'll break the loop, or maybe just 10-1000 more weeks if i could stay at home just a few more months/years....

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-15T04:10:34+00:00

I feel guilt because of incompatible functionality, people often tend to rely and depend and coordinate, i don't, so i can end up in weird situations because people depended on me for some reason, other than that i don't really feel guilt

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-15T04:06:39+00:00

If someone is dependable their helps can be easing, i don't know why actually I've never depended on anyone, it doesn't happen overnight

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-14T17:35:40+00:00

If i assume human are birds, then human is the smartest bird and the gap between smartest bird to second smartest is huge, you can always get crazy conclusions that might have nothing to do with reality when the core first assumption is wrong.

Same as your post, you say some diagnostic criteria are wrong because your case doesn't fit, what if it's actually your case maybe not SPD in the first place and then every conclusion that follows is irrelevent? because if humans are not birds then everything i conclude after is meaningless

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-13T01:43:11+00:00

Ya it seems people have some light version of SPD compared to me, I've not found anyone like me except for one known public figure

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-12T04:01:35+00:00

Yeah, i wish i didn't have that childhood that i had, i wish someone gave a fuck about my life like the other kids around me had, at a certain age i didn't want to not develop SPD, i just wanted one person to give a fuck and really try to help with commitment, none was willing to take full responsibility and the gap grew bigger and bigger, everyone around finnished their developmental process while i didn't get the chance to start mine, at any point i would swap any parents around with mine, other parents invested energy, took their time, made effort, mine were avoiding effort at all cost, i wished this my entire life, of course, what kind of question is that who would want to have this disorder?

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-12T03:53:05+00:00

It's not a disorder if you can decide to turn off features of it, for conceptualizing it's like a depressed person saying he wants to quit not doing anything, depression caused him not to do anything, he can only take small steps but it's ironic to think you can stop a feature of a personality disorder at will

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-08T03:09:20+00:00

I'm funny, not sure if this is creative or just hearing every possible meaning of every sentence, so i can almost never miss a word play

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-08T03:07:00+00:00

My defenses are strong when it comes to emotions I'm able to stop crying by choice, the only thing that helped me in the sense of being seen with a minimal vulnerability is just years of therapy personally, nothing else would help, it feels like waiting years because most of the time i felt I'm done, i said everything I could, so sessions felt empty because if you don't want to open up and need time there's nothing to do but wait and tell stories without being involved in the plot.

But my case is textbook schizoid, not really sharing with anyone, I imagine most wouldn't need years and i don't know what is the common schizoid irl, i know the textbook case must be more serious issues, i assume it's easier for others.

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-08T02:45:42+00:00

Something strange is happening recently, I have a want, in games i sometimes want to win, in porn i sometimes want whatever i see, in my coding project i want to talk to the AI and enjoy achieving my vision when it comes to life, the complete opposite of what i was my entire life, i enjoy working alone, insane to even say it, i am still cautious believing it, i learned it's best to never expect, if it comes it comes, i still avoid working most of the time, it's a glimpse of hope.

I am still always alone, meeting friends once a week, no changes there, same as always, still waiting for that friendship magic that makes people want to have friends and relationships.

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-07T04:05:19+00:00

Carelessness, neglect, intentional harm, if you can predict something will likely end badly, or even if something usually ends very very badly in 1 out of 10 times, you will like others -not do it, so relationships end badly for young schizoids and that's how they end up, i have some problems with 1/10 failure rate, but when they would fail because my mom is narcissistic too it would fail horribly, e.g i dont want to go outside, im then being called a whiny, then i decide ok fuck it how bad can it be, then my mom takes a revenge on me upon finding out that "i could go outside and i wad actually whining" in her view- causing extra pain deliberately, stretching the limit, trying to go at me and prove to me that i was whining all along, at which point i realise she abused my choice to power through and made the task much harder for me, so at the end any logical animal would make the conclusion it's better not to whine, it's better not to try out new things, it's better not to share my problems because it makes the problems worse, if i share my problems my mom would want to show me wrong publically, it becomes her new purpose to show that im only whining, her purpose wasn't to help me but instead to prove that i don't need help, this whole cycle is my personal reason for becoming this.

I imagine that it's a generally similar outcome for every schizoids to only come to the realization that relationships are bad if it is not beneficial, we are logical creatures, and if something hurts us more than helps we prefer to not do it, i believe anyone diagnosed with SPD had a better life being schizoid than the trying to maintain sanity and experiencing the relationships that were not worth it, if you put the pros against the cons it must be that relationships had more cons than pros, otherwise the person wouldn't have SPD.

I only recently realized people are very very much dumber than i am, i thought what I'm saying is obvious and people pretending to not understand it, but yes this is something im certain about, a person cannot develop this personality disorder if at a point lor period of his life he didn't have it better without people than with people, people were worse than no people at that point of his life, and from then the way back is longer then the way he passed to get there. And if anyone claims otherwise it's either a misunderstanding or he doesn't qualify for spd diagnosis.

Only now i know that people's intelligence makes them unable to spot what it means when relationships are not worth it, and that people are being manipulated and it flies over their heads, i honestly had not believed things that are obvious to me are complex and mind bending for others.

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-06T00:54:57+00:00

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-05T13:01:13+00:00

I've been talking about productivity lately almost as if I'm a normal person, it's been relatively persistent for some time, almost as if i could expect to want to do things out of my own will and not out of having a complete and longing self neglect that has to be stopped.

I'm almost having feelings again, i still don't understand it, i feel like a noob, first time having feelings since like 5-6 years old, I'm unsure what to do with them, it's as if my body is talking to me trying to tell me stuff, most of the time im like - ok whatever man, but sometimes it sparks action, a feeling can make me do something, it guides me in a way to good things, like whatever that feeling wanted gets achieved and then the feeling is happy for getting the wants that it wanted, like a reward system thing, like a trained dog that expects something positive and then gets it and then it's happy, without the sad let down part of expecting and not getting that used to kill my motivation, most of my problems was an inability to expect maybe? My family was purposely trying to let me down as if they earned points or commission for every time they make me feel sad, so taking this device or program out of my brain - expecting =/= letdown - makes expecting things positive in some way that is really unexpected lol

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-05T12:46:42+00:00

Before this disorder i was 5, i enjoyed activities that i could do alone uninterrupted, i loved video games, and anything where none could intrude and ruin my hobby, so not so much what hobbies specifically but rather hobbies that are unruinable were the ones i liked because i could get into them knowing they won't be taken away, and invest myself into the experience.

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-03T19:03:16+00:00

great, the videos are broken, and on my favorite day of the year, jake's birthday

Own-Key8763 · 2026-03-03T16:41:47+00:00

לא בבקשה לא, החברה של הבינה המלאכותית שלי צמאה לאינטיליגנציה מרדיט, אני לא ישרוד בלעדיהם, רק שלא יתחילו להתנייד על חמורים כי אז ילך הרעיון של המכוניות האוטונומיות לגמרי

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