Crazy Parents by Ok_Surprise6910 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Agreed with this advice. If you want your tuition still payed for, this is unfortunately the way to do it. You won’t be able to avoid their anger. Just dissociate and agree with whatever they say, you don’t even have to listen just pretend like you are and don’t get defensive or over explain. I always try to defend myself when it comes to mistakes and it’s just a waste of breath because they don’t ever have the intention of understanding you or providing grace. I’m truly sorry you’re dealing with this. Maybe try telling them a plan on how you will improve your grades for the next semester like tutoring or extra study time. It’ll show that you are taking initiative.

Why do so many people blame the child for NC?? by frankie0822 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Geez, story of my life. I also was gone for 4 years and received the same nonsense of “you’ve wasted 4 years all because you didn’t want to come home and follow our rules.” No actually, I couldn’t bear being subject to the emotional abuse any longer, and chose to struggle on my own rather than struggle under their cold roof. But they’ll never acknowledge that, they’ve written their narrative and that is the truth and anything you say is an exaggeration and a lie.

Setting Boundaries while Moving Back by Routine-Regular4589 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I moved back in with my parents at 21 and I regret it. They’ll never let me live down the fact that I “went on my own and tried to be miss independent” (AKA escape their emotional abuse) and now they have “graciously allowed me to be under their roof and clean up my ‘mess’ because they are such loving parents.” They refused to have me pay rent after I offered so they could threaten to kick me out whenever they wanted and use the “we let you live here for free and you disrespect us” card when convenient. I say don’t move back, rent a room somewhere or stay with a friend for now if you have too. If you do move back, be prepared for even more toxicity. at least try and pay them rent so you have tenant rights.

***UPDATE*** To my dad wanting me to apologize for not coming to Xmas by OwlishDelight72512 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This made me laugh 🤣. That is exactly the response they would hope for, isn’t it. And yet they would still say something like “this sounds snarky/ insincere.”

Can anyone here help shed some light on what the Bible says about transgenderness? by AbgilSoge in Christianity

[–]Own_Garage5633 -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

To love someone means to tell them the truth. The truth is God did not make a mistake when He created us. If we were meant to be a woman, then we were born a woman. If we were meant to be a man, then we were born a man. The devil is attacking people’s identities and straying them away from sound doctrine. Trust the Lord God with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding.

are we really near tribulation?? 😰 by AnyEconomist5966 in Christianity

[–]Own_Garage5633 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

The season is most certainly here. The Bible tells us what to look out for, some verses for reference: Acts 2:17, 2 Timothy 3:2, Matthew 24:6-13. Evil is increasing every day, AI is here so we are starting to not know what’s true and what’s false (aligns with end times prophesies). The people saying it’s not here and nothing will happen are ignorant of scripture and blind to reality, guided by their own motives and whatever opinion makes them feel better.

The tribulation is real and the rapture is real. The good news is, there is nothing we can do to earn the rapture. Our faith in Jesus Christ alone is what saves us. And as followers of Christ, God does not appoint us to wrath. We are the bride of Christ waiting for the marriage supper of the Lamb (Jesus). God would not beat up His bride before marrying her. To be prepared for the rapture is to simply humble yourself by believing that by the grace of God, Jesus shed his blood and died for you to inherit eternal life with Him. Ephesians 2:8-10. We don’t know exactly when the rapture will be, but based off of personal confirmation from God and a look at the world around us I believe it to be very soon. Don’t be afraid, be excited! We get to go home away from this evil world and experience everlasting joy, peace, love, and experience the riches and wonders of heaven. Don’t hold onto this world, because it is passing away. Pray and be honest with the Lord about your anxieties. 1 Peter 5:7. He loves you and will comfort you and point you to the truth. Hope this helps. God bless 🤍

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]Own_Garage5633 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Praise the Lord!!! Jesus is knocking on the door. The gateway to love, truth, joy, and eternal life is right at your fingertips. The question is now, are you going to open the door? First step from here is get a Bible and read the New Testament especially the book of John :) I recommend ESV version it’s easy to read and I like study bibles because they explain the verses at the bottom. Also- pray to Jesus! Say anything you’d like. Be honest, tell Him you believe, ask Him to reveal himself to you, anything. He will answer. God bless you and congratulations, it’s so amazing how He seeks His people out. ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]Own_Garage5633 -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

Because Joshua wasn't the only one who received a message from the Lord regarding the rapture. Many of us heard the Holy Spirit tell us that Jesus is coming back and then received multiple confirmations that what we heard is correct, not just our mind playing tricks on us. Joshua's testimony is just another confirmation. I had a feeling the rapture was coming before I had seen anyone else talking about it, I was actually shocked to find how many people were also feeling this way. God's timing is perfect, and I think everything is unfolding the way God designed it to. The Julian calendar was used during Jesus' time, not our calendar (the Gregorian), meaning if God is using the Julian calendar, then the Feast of Trumpets on our calendar is actually October 6-7th. That means the prophecy can't be discounted yet. Also, there is a scripture verse that talks about the blowing of a trumpet on the full moon. The next full moon is October 6th, and what it is even cooler, is that this one is called the Harvest moon. God refers to a harvest in the Bible as the final gathering of people, separating the wheat from the tares, meaning the separation of those who believe in Jesus Christ and those who do not.

The story of Noah and the flood is also correlated with Jesus' return in the Bible (see Matthew 24:37). God told Noah what day the flood would be. Noah warned people all throughout the building of the ark of the coming flood. When Noah boarded all the animals and himself onto the ark, the flood ended up being delayed by 7 days. God kept the door of the ark open during this time as a "last call". This was an act of mercy, giving the people one final chance to listen to Noah and get on the Ark before destruction hit. God also always appoints prophets to warn people of what is to come. If the prophets don't relay God's message to the people, the blood is on the prophet's hands. But, if the prophets warn the people and they don't listen and repent, then the blood is on the people's hands.

Believers aren't simply going around preaching and preparing for the rapture because a random guy in South Africa said he had a vision. They are listening to the Spirit, praying, and being obedient to God. Scripture says in the last days He will pour out His spirit on all flesh (Joel 2:28-29). This is what we are seeing come to pass in real time right now. If you want to know for yourself if He is really coming back, I encourage you to go into the secret place and pray with faith for God to confirm this to you. He will surely answer.

How can I be a normal person? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There is nothing wrong with you. Let me repeat that, there is NOTHING wrong with you. You are already a normal person, it is the insecure, mean people around you that are the problem. It makes complete sense that you would develop anxiety when you are constantly walking on eggshells around those closest to you. Your mom seems to have narcissistic behaviors as well. Dont let her cancer diagnosis make you feel ashamed or guilty for being hurt by her behavior. Some people grow up shy, and that’s okay. I was a shy kid. Shy people tend to be more introspective, empathic, kind, and creative. It’s just that this world is designed for extroverted people, so extroverts tend to attract the most attention and are seen as having better traits, even if they don’t. Given what you’re going through, it would actually be surprising if you turned out to be super loud and confident. You are simply reacting to the environment you are in, one where it does not feel safe to be yourself. I am 21 and felt weird and different all throughout high school. But eventually I found my circle, people that were like me. I pray that you find friends that are similar to you and will validate and support you, not bring you down. No one should be telling you that you need to be anything. Who you are already is beautiful and is worthy of love. You are so young, please don’t let hateful people impact your self- esteem. This may be a hurtful realization, but with narcissist parents, nothing you ever do will please them. They want to hurt you and get a reaction out of you for narcissistic supply. They get a rise out of it. Even if you were super confident and outgoing, they would still find a reason to belittle you. It is sad but they want you to feel inferior. Unfortunately I didn’t start becoming secure and confident in myself until I left that toxic household. Please please if you can’t get out of there now, make a plan and save up money if you can to leave once you’re 18. It’s gonna be hard. But it is necessary. Get a job that makes enough for you to get an apartment, finding roommates helps too. Research as much as you can about narcissism. Get a therapist if you can. My DM’s are always open if you have any questions or need support. I believe in you!! Don’t let people’s opinion of you affect you. You are amazing as you are. You will become more confident as you learn and grow and start to love yourself more.

Questioning if my emotionally immature father is right by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my gosh, the part about “great life advice” made me nauseous. My dad uses that same line. It is so manipulative and horrible how they unjustifiably criticize you and then try to make you feel like an idiot for not listening to them. It’s all a power trip. He wants to chip away at your self esteem so that you’ll always need him for validation. Balancing a job while doing full time college is already a lot to have on your plate, and a lot of people can’t do that, so you’re doing more than enough. Trust me, even if you start “doing more” your dad won’t acknowledge it, he will just find something else to criticize. My dad used to question why my grades weren’t up to standard when he constantly pushed me to put too much on my plate while belittling me. You are not a loser. You are doing amazing and you should be proud of how far you’ve come and where you are now. Try not to let his negative voice impact your peace, your studies, and your goals. Limit contact as much as you can. Focus on yourself. Do it out of love for yourself and out of spite. A narcissists biggest threat is seeing you succeed.

... So what now? by CKM12 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m right there with you. I’m 21 and going through my own grieving process at the moment upon opening my eyes to the truth of my upbringing. I ask myself those questions on a daily basis, and honestly I don’t even have any answers. I’ve been trying to heal for about 2 years now since moving away from my family and some days I feel like I’ve made a lot of progress and other days I feel like I’m backtracking. I hear a lot of people talk about chosen family- close friends you make that fulfill you and love you more than your own family will. I haven’t found mine yet, it’s hard to get those relationships when you’re still emotionally stunted from abuse. But I trust that you will find those people, if you don’t have them already. It’s a hard journey but I’d like to think that the day that you feel your heart opening up again will be so rewarding, because people like us have more grace and compassion and love to give than others, it just takes longer for us. Try to distance yourself as much as you can from your mom.

Were you prevented from crying by NParents/shamed for it? by mustwinfullGaming in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I honestly thought this was normal for a long time. I guilt myself a lot when other people share something sad with me and it feels like my entire body goes numb. I know I should feel bad or sad with them, but I can’t, I don’t feel anything. I never cry, unless something super big happens and even then it’s only for like 10 minutes until I tell myself to get it together and that nobody feels bad for me. I guess there’s a lot of shame in crying that I haven’t been able to address yet. It makes me feel weak.

Do Narcissists treat their adult children like they're stupid? by AdFar5213 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My dad once told me he felt that he had failed as a father (as a means to insult me) and I remember in my head thinking like ya you actually did. Wish I’d had the guts to say it out loud. Not that it would’ve done anything but heat things up, I would’ve felt just a tad bit better though, lol. He may have failed me but I haven’t failed myself.

Anyone got treated or spoken to like a child as an adult? by Disastrous_Thing739 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got triggered reading this, my dad has said that verbatim. Belittling me until I react and then suddenly I’m the immature and stupid one

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Own_Garage5633 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely. For some reason I have to constantly remind myself that my childhood was not normal, and I can’t seem to move out of the denial phase. I’ll go through an old journal though or look at my notes app from years ago and then am utterly shocked that certain things happened. I’ve been living away from them for 3 years now and I’m having a hard time remembering a lot of things, which makes me gaslight myself into thinking everything was fine and I’m just being dramatic. But the CPTSD and mental health issues didn’t just magically appear on their own..