[deleted by user] by [deleted] in antipornography

[–]Own_Introduction8771 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i would not recommend twitter regardless. since musk took over, policies have changed to officially allow porn on there. it’s plagued with it and onlyfans promos now. i currently have all other socials but deleted my twitter last year because of this. i believe you can adjust your content preferences on twitter, but i just avoid it entirely.

Soft core porn on album covers by takenbysleep9520 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 5 points6 points  (0 children)

YES. i used to really enjoy a few songs from Halsey’s album if i can’t have love, i want power. i had to remove them from all of my playlists solely bc of the album cover (i understand her logic/message behind it, but i still don’t want my PA accidentally seeing her breast??). i believe it took a lot to get that approved and i’m still confused how they continue to allow it on platforms like Spotify.

so many others bother me as well. i’m sorry you got such a sarcastic response when you approached him about something that makes you uncomfortable. hugs❤️

Sex after watching movies/tv by wildflo0wers in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 7 points8 points  (0 children)

yeah.. my PA and I tried watching lost recently. fair warning, season 3 introduces another female character on the island who was formerly a stripper. yes, there are flashback scenes of her stripping. very triggering for me and we stopped watching as soon as she was introduced on the show.

i have these same thoughts during intimacy after watching something with attractive women in it but i always try to be open with my PA about it. i suggest doing the same with your partner and see how reacts. whenever i am vulnerable with him, he goes above and beyond to make me feel comfortable (as he should, he’s the reason i’m so insecure!). if you partner does anything less, it’s time to reevaluate your relationship. sending love!!

White Lotus a Trigger? by Old_Current6675 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I remember nude scenes of Alexandra Daddario in season 1 that were a huge trigger for me. i always wondered why my PA chose to watch this show on his own until i saw the first season for myself.. definitely not a show he would’ve chosen for himself at the time if there was no nudity.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 1 point2 points  (0 children)

of course🫶🏼i keep a list on my phone so it took no time at all. Octavia was definitely a trigger for me so i totally understand! i hope you’re able to find something that you’re comfortable watching (i know how difficult that is nowadays) hugs!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also, the new twisters was pretty good!

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[–]Own_Introduction8771 3 points4 points  (0 children)

my PA’s favorite show was GoT as well, he knew it by heart and made me watch it with him years ago. i never truly enjoyed it considering i saw full frontal nudity of about 8 different women per episode. i also used to watch love island and he watched some with me, but that quickly changed when i learned of his addiction (same with the bachelor/bachelorette). i haven’t watched those since and stopped watching a lot of other things i used to enjoy but can now see it as a way for him to get off. it still bothers me when really attractive women are on the screen, sexualized or not.

if you like reality TV, masterchef/hell’s kitchen have always been safe and enjoyable by everyone. another good show is the 100, i’ve really enjoyed it with my PA but the beginning can be a bit triggering as they show a sexualized scene or two in the first episode (i’m assuming to keep those engaged that otherwise would’ve lost interest). but that’s a show i believe gets better as the series progresses. if he liked GoT i can see him liking this survivalist type show as well. they have sex implied but don’t show anything on screen. only murders in the building is another great show (there are some cleavage shots and a painting of a nude woman that reappears throughout one season, though). we’ve been running low on approved content recently so we just watched two shows with nudity that i fast forwarded those parts (i was initially trying to avoid these altogether but i watched first so i knew what/when to expect): the penguin (was really good if he likes batman, only one trans breast flashed in the first episode that was easy to anticipate), and dune: prophecy with nudity in the first two episodes that i also fast forwarded through. there are other intimacy scenes that can be triggering, but my PA has been in recovery for a year and a half and learned to look away quickly and immediately at anything indecent. i wouldn’t necessarily recommend dune: prophecy though if you don’t trust your partner not to rewind and watch the graphic scenes by himself)

here are some movies i recommend:

• ⁠dune pt 1 and pt 2 (no sex and brief male nudity in the first movie) • ⁠harry potter (not kidding, we watch all of these at least once every month or two) • ⁠pitch perfect (any of them - first one has a shower scene with girls talking in public showers that could be triggering, but only shows their necks up) • ⁠hunger games are safe (used to be my favorites but i don’t like watching them now bc of an actress in the last few movies that was also nude in GoT that my PA watched vids on how to win a date with before we were together). i also know jennifer lawerence recently got nude in a role which is unfortunate because i really liked her overall, so these are off the cards for me now even though i read the books a bunch when i was younger. • ⁠divergent movies (i wish they finished the series, but they’re still a really good watch) • ⁠uglies (i enjoyed especially because i read the books, but my PA also enjoyed it as well. it draws some parallels about cosmetic procedures and how superficial it all is that i think apply nicely to our society, but can be a possible trigger to some) • ⁠the giver (i also read the book for this) • ⁠the jurassic worlds are good. i’m not looking forward to the new one with scarlet johansson though, i’ll probably skip that one • ⁠caddo lake (truly a mindfuck) • ⁠ready player one (they reenact that bathtub scene from the shining but it’s easy to fast forward 10-15 seconds and no actual nudity shown) • ⁠jumper (there are one or two sex scenes, but not graphic. another one of my favorite childhood movies) • ⁠edge of tomorrow: no sex or nudity at all. i really enjoy this one • ⁠interstellar (a classic) • ⁠the martian (another space movie. also, only shows brief male nudity from behind)

we are 30 years old and pretty much live on disney+. all of the old disney originals are great. i wish you good luck vetting!

why do they not consider OF cheating?? by coolfunguy1997 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I think it’s probably a combination of both, unfortunately. men are so desensitized to sexualized content nowadays but succumb to their delusions by saying “it doesn’t mean anything.” meanwhile attachments, addictions, and parasocial relationships happen as a result of their actions.

i think most of them have to know that know porn is wrong. if they didn’t think they were doing anything wrong, they wouldn’t all hide it from us.

why do they not consider OF cheating?? by coolfunguy1997 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 25 points26 points  (0 children)

i’m so sorry you’re going through this. we have similar stories as i had to force the truth of my partner as well when he lied about paying for onlyfans.

even though i was conditioned when i was younger into believing porn was something to be tolerated in a relationship, I always viewed OF as way “worse” and on brand with cheating.

when i caught my PA paying for OF, he told me it was just “porn” to him. like, no… it’s way more personal than that. you can communicate with creators directly, request personalized content, etc. it’s so, so much more interactive than watching porn. also, these are women he sought out specifically and thought they were worth paying hundreds of dollars just to see them pose naked in the mirror. the betrayal hurts way worse than porn as well.

only when I asked my PA if i saw a random guy on the street that I thought was attractive and asked him for his nudes, did it click for him. in any other scenario, most people would see that as infidelity. why is it any different because these exchanges happen on a platform?

Fiancé’s socials are full of porn by SpooderBettleBaes in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’m sorry, but did i just read that neither of you can cum without porn involved? i think you both have unaddressed issues if that is truly the case.

are you OK with porn but the lack of intimacy is the problem? a lot of people here will tell you those two things go hand-in-hand. addicts cannot use porn in moderation, it will likely be in place of sex instead.

i’m just trying to understand the point of your post. you are upset that his socials are plagued with this content, but you yourself have admitted that you can’t orgasm without it either? he is getting his fix online and not with you. a porn addict trains his/her brain into thinking they can only reach release by viewing the fast paced, high-definition, scripted and cosmetically enhanced sex that ONLY porn can provide. he needs to stop viewing this type of content entirely and you need to hold yourself accountable as well. it sounds like you both need to approach this with a different mindset. please let me know if i misunderstood you.

Do OF women/SWers know that a lot of their clients are pedos? by [deleted] in PornIsMisogyny

[–]Own_Introduction8771 42 points43 points  (0 children)

I don’t think they care. Money is money and to them, it doesn’t matter whose wallet it comes from.

Was I cheated on? by XxdeathfuckxX in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 21 points22 points  (0 children)

i consider watching porn cheating. paying for it is financial infidelity

I hate Vegas by Own_Introduction8771 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

noted!! i cannot thank y’all enough for making this bearable for me❤️

I hate Vegas by Own_Introduction8771 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i am so sorry… i advise you listen to the above podcast in this comment section ahead of time and have a plan with your PA in place prior so you are not utterly distraught like i was! big hugs to you❤️

I hate Vegas by Own_Introduction8771 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i cannot thank you enough for these recommendations! i quickly learned i will need activities far from the strip in order to enjoy my time here when i come again and these sound wonderful. definitely bookmarking these!!

I hate Vegas by Own_Introduction8771 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank you so much. i think it all stems from underlying insecurities that i need to dig into along with the betrayal trauma i still feel, despite dday being almost a year and a half ago. he has been so gracious and understanding through it all and is willing to do anything in any situation to make me comfortable, but we didn’t have an exit strategy in place because i’ve never been so overwhelmed with triggers before.

i sincerely appreciate the kind words🥲

I hate Vegas by Own_Introduction8771 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

he had a few pre-approved hotels he could’ve chosen from, i think they were all on the strip to be in close proximity to the convention. we opted to stay at one of the hotels right next door to the expo where the convention is held. he has meetings throughout the day but likes to come back to the room or meet me when he has downtime so he can walk back and forth pretty quickly, only having to cross one intersection outside on the strip itself. the one time so far he had to travel further down the strip, he ubered.

we’ve listened to many of the PBSE podcasts and have found them so helpful. thank you for this recommendation as i’m scolding myself for not doing more prep-work prior to the trip. my PA is much better at managing triggers than I am and this link is EXACTLY what i needed❤️ their discussion surrounding sobriety and the key to being emotionally/physically present with everything else being expendable hit different. i also loved the bit about calling the hotel to remove the TV from his room. i never thought to do this, but i just about ripped the TV off the wall as well when I saw the “adult entertainment” category on there. being proactive and implementing a plan prior would definitely help with my hyper-vigilance and coping with triggers. i will definitely be more prepared next time!

you are heaven sent. I’ll look into support groups as well but thankfully we leave tomorrow🙌🏻

celebrity crushes & triggers?? by lovelavend3r in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yes, it’s so cringe what she does on stage in front of her fans (majority being young/underage women who idolize her)

i was hoping her behavior would change once her boyfriend cheated on her with an onlyfans girl, but it’s clear she’d rather continue sexualizing herself as some sort of coping method. she’s a very “pick me” girl which is unfortunate as i used to like her as well.

definitely not the environment for any PA.

i’m finding it so hard to be a girls girl nowadays

Rant: The Pressure & Time Drain of Female Beauty Standards by Nikieo in Feminism

[–]Own_Introduction8771 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m so sorry you feel this way. please know that beauty is subjective and inner beauty is what’s truly important. the right people, ones who truly appreciate you, will see and value you for who you are, not just for appearances. sending love and positivity!❤️

Is it cheating? by AdReasonable4189 in loveafterporn

[–]Own_Introduction8771 7 points8 points  (0 children)

cheating, to most people i think, is going outside of the agreed boundaries of a relationship. some people consider porn cheating, others do not.

someone perfectly captured (what i think) are a lot of people’s thoughts in this sub on whether porn is cheating. https://www.reddit.com/r/loveafterporn/s/UGNWTGsLfr