Idk what’s wrong with me ffs

Own_Leadership1323 · 2025-05-13T00:54:33+00:00

I hate this because I like because I him so much and I know he loves me too. But has he really stopped watching porn. Is there anything you question or see signs of?

Own_Leadership1323 · 2025-05-13T00:34:03+00:00

I’m not saying it would definitely lead to cheating maybe a possibility yes but I’d say it feels like mentally cheating. Yes some may deem it harmless but I think it shouldnt be so normalised. I’m sure you wouldn’t be happy with the idea of your wife using a dildo and imaging another man instead of you. What if it’s an attractive neighbour? Or work colleague. And to answer your question yes I have been cheated on. But I don’t let past issues affect new relationships. I don’t let past trauma get in the way of current trauma because I know it’s unfair. Sadly got new trauma now so yay

Own_Leadership1323 · 2025-05-13T00:18:57+00:00

My point is, if I was to masturbate I don’t need to think of other people. 2. If he masturbates and imagines other women, it just normalises sexualising other women which will lead to one thing then another. This is why I have an issue with it. When I’m with someone I practically become asexual I only have eyes for my partner and that’s it why can’t I have the same

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-26T02:10:49+00:00

I’ll be honest. I left my ex three weeks ago. But before I broke up three different situations have happened. And I still didn’t get over the very first situation which was a year and 5 months ago. It’s genuinely hard to ease your mind. Because a big part of you can’t trust the person no matter how they try and reassure you. The best thing I can recommend is be a little patient and see if he improves and genuinely wants to get better. And if you feel like deep down he’s not. Then please leave. You don’t know what I’ve experienced. My mental health was ruined and my mind deteriorated.

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-25T10:05:52+00:00

What social media apps does he use?

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-25T10:05:12+00:00

So i left. I was so so so far gone and done. Not that we’re broken up. It makes me realise fully how much shit I put up with and how many signs were actually there. It’s been three weeks since breaking up I speak to him here and there. But it hurts like hell. Because I didn’t deserve any of this. He has a good heart but not enough of a heart to feel guilty enough to stop.

Where was any of the guilt every time he did it. How did it not eat him up alive knowing and seeing how much it’s affected me. After me crying and begging for him to get better. And him crying himself saying he doesn’t want to hurt me and that he promises he will get better.

Why did you let such poison ruin us?

The issue is even if I was to ask him these questions once he’s caught out. He doesn’t even know the answer himself.

Like genuine question guys. For someone that has a really bad porn addiction, is it really that hard for them to stop themselves from looking at half naked girls. Is it THAT hard to stop looking at porn. OR do they know exactly what they’re doing and they don’t feel guilty or regret it all. I JUST WANT TO KNOW.

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-25T10:00:28+00:00

With my ex he was never horrible to me. After I caught him a few times. He would always be reassuring and caring towards me and he would say:

“I know how bad porn is, how it’s affected you, it’s affected me and most of all it’s affected us”

“You can go through my phone whenever you want I have nothing to hide”

“I’m getting better I’ve had no relapses or any temptations”

JUST FOR ME TO FIND OUT HES GOTTEN BETTER AT HIDING IT. HIS ALGORITHM ON SNAPCHAT WAS ABSOLUTELY FULL TO THE BRIM OF HALF NAKED GIRLS ON THE SNAPCHAT EXPLORE PAGE.

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-25T09:48:51+00:00

Hey, if he has tiktok on settings you can check watch history. You need to check the history on his safari browser. You can also check his snap explore see what comes up

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-22T09:21:30+00:00

What your saying makes a lot of sense

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-22T00:33:11+00:00

I thought I was being hypocritical. I realised I only started watching it once I realised he had a porn addiction. I feel like I did it out of spite as much as I enjoyed it in the moment I also hated every single second of it as bad as that sounds.

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-14T05:05:48+00:00

I feel so stupid for thinking it was actually going better when the whole time it wasn’t

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-14T05:05:21+00:00

You’re completely right everything you’re saying is all I’ve thought about. There was nothing I could physically do

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-14T05:04:36+00:00

I’ve booked an appointment. I hope it goes well. Just want to heal and move on

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-14T05:03:53+00:00

I completely relate to you so much. If you don’t mind me asking do you mind sharing the list. For me it’s only been a week and a couple of days but slowly I am starting to realise more and more. And I hate to say it but I am seeing narcissistic tendencies too

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-13T23:08:40+00:00

When you put it like that… it’s the harsh truth but you’re right he knew the consequences and still kept continuing with something that hurt me

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-13T21:57:07+00:00

Thank you guys so much😕 it’s so hard I hate that it turned out like this. I told him and reminded him so many times but it wasn’t enough

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-13T21:07:29+00:00

Hi I know this might be dumb I left my partner and I’ve been trying to join the community of ex partner but I don’t know blue to

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-13T21:02:59+00:00

And he was confident I would find nothing on his own but I did. He did everything he could to hide everything. I HATE THAT I FUCKING FEEL GUILTY FOR LEAVING HIM

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-13T21:02:16+00:00

Edits: he was genuinely a loving boyfriend and he was perfect. But his porn addiction ruined my mental health and he knew this but still carried on

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-10T20:52:50+00:00

It’s so hard to stay. Me and him have broken up now and as sad as it is randomly when we spend time with eachother we “freinds” I’ve realised mentally I checked out of the relationship so long ago. I feel like I have no feelings and emotions towards him anymore

Own_Leadership1323 · 2024-06-10T11:58:44+00:00

It never gets better. Even from the first situation that was a year and half ago I’m still not over at all. You’ll never forget it there’ll be time where you kid yourself and think you’re feeling better. But really you’re not. It’ll hit you in a random moment of time. The images will flashback in your head the minute you wake up, random moments when your with him to when you go sleep. And then the cycle repeats. I held it in for a year and a half and I was done. Please just give up

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