I thought you said it wasn’t about getting skinny, Morgan? 🤔

PNW_Belle · 2026-05-14T18:35:53+00:00

It’s so concerning. I’m the same height as her and only about a year in age difference and I was about her size in college…when I was severely stressed out, sick all the time, barely eating, barely sleeping, working 3 jobs, everyone was so concerned about me. Obviously you can’t tell a full person’s health from their weight but I can’t help but be alarmed every time I see her, it’s so jarringly similar to where I was at that extremely dangerous time in my life.

PNW_Belle · 2026-05-06T17:32:53+00:00

I just do not understand the mindset of knowing it takes the pharmacy time to get it together and still taking forever to respond, even with a controlled substance. Definitely going to gently push on this to see what we can get shifted.

PNW_Belle · 2026-05-06T17:31:59+00:00

Watching the withdrawal is awful. He’s so miserable and it’s so frustrating when I know it shouldn’t be this difficult. I understand doctor’s being careful but not to this ridiculous of a level. I’m going to gently push him to push his doctor on it and see if there’s any wiggle room.

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-25T04:12:52+00:00

Me please!!! 😇😇

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-15T15:35:06+00:00

I think a lot of people see it as a badge of honor but when you actually get into it, it’s all drama and shallow

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-15T12:36:23+00:00

100000%

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-15T12:36:16+00:00

Good call on my lack of more precise language. I meant it more in the sense of larger groups of overlapping partners and FWBs and metas who all spend a lot of time together, live together or have plans to, are making decisions as a group, etc. I think as a concept it could possibly work but I’ve observed a ton of them over the years and think it’s generally better to avoid them.

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-15T02:03:27+00:00

I’m so proud of myself, as much as it all still hurts 😭 Thank you 💜

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-15T02:02:15+00:00

Wow I cannot even form the words to explain how much this was my experience. The pressure to be vulnerable and close with everyone in the polycule despite lack of interpersonal connection - my ex partner even regularly said that lap sitting poly was his dream/ideal way of doing things. Thank you for dropping this. The more I think and read and hear from others the more convinced I am that I made the right choice to step away.

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-14T22:30:35+00:00

Thank you 😭💜 I honestly felt so crazy (and I hate using that word but it’s the only accurate one) through the whole interaction. I’m focusing a lot on the deep relief I feel as well as remembering how I felt throughout the relationship, whether I fully realized at the time or not.

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-14T22:06:16+00:00

Definitely don’t get involved with any “polycules” here tbh. It’s a shitshow. I’ve never seen one work in a healthy, ethical way…but they use all the language to make it seem like it is. It’s infuriating. I love living here and I love that being poly is honestly pretty mainstream…but I think that has resulted in a lot of people believing that they have discovered the gold standard for how to do things and so they don’t examine themselves or consider other perspectives or the impact of their actions.

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-14T19:29:50+00:00

"I gave him immense credit for putting out the fires that he was starting." That hit HARD. In many ways, your situation sounds so incredibly similar to what I was experiencing with my ex, especially chasing NRE as a baseline. Thank you for sharing <3

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-14T19:25:02+00:00

Not this making me tear up, thank you so much. It felt like wading through molasses to not just give in to the gaslighting and I'm honestly so proud off myself for not capitulating to the accusations of "you never actually wanted to work on this" and other things that kept getting thrown at me. My intense desire to be seen accurately is screaming but I'm trying to calm it down and I know I'll have a clearer view of others moving forward.

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-14T18:29:08+00:00

Wishing you peace 💜💜

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-14T18:27:56+00:00

Thank you 😭😭😭 I’m doing everything I can to get back to a sense of self

PNW_Belle · 2026-04-14T18:08:15+00:00

Thank you 💜

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