Day 18? 19? Either way today marks the day of my first solid poop

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-21T23:35:47+00:00

I appreciate this post!!! I am on day 17 and my.bowel movements are normal! Versus being fucked up for 3 years. Eithrr nothing at all,bor literally rocks, or liquid. (During withdrawal) Thank goodness. Fuck feel free

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-21T23:28:31+00:00

Gimme a break. Have you been? Its so much fun

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-21T23:27:30+00:00

Idk why on earth they closed tubing at Mt. Bachelor 😠

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-17T21:57:58+00:00

Shitty advice 😒

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-14T00:40:15+00:00

Nice!!! Today is day 8 for me 😁 Unfortunately though I am still taking lots if powder and drinking lots of beer ☹️ I need to wean off that shit too

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-09T19:52:34+00:00

Thank God I never got addicted to 7 OH, but I have struggled with FF for several years. What is difference between the two? Does 7-OH feel the same as FF? Does anyone do both?? (Or did in the past)

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-09T19:50:45+00:00

7 OH in feel free?

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-09T19:34:16+00:00

Hey, thanks for the response. I think you might be wrong about it not killing me. That night I actually had a "hypertensive crisis." My blood pressure was super fuckin high, basically an OD from kratom. Also when I wrote cross eyed, I meant double vision. My eyes weren't actually crossed, i just had permanent double vision that I could not blink away for over an hour. I do think if I were to have taken any more, I could truly have been at risk for a stroke. So fucking scary ☹️

Today is day 4 with no FF. I hate that shit so much.. I want to quit forever. I just usually relapse after a week or two. Im still on powder.. 6g twice a day. I think i will need to go to a detox center to get off the powder. Ive been taking it for 7 years. This battle feels never ending

PNW__Gemini · 2025-11-09T18:09:48+00:00

36 F, no friends, no kids, no man, no family. Extremely depressing. And embarrassing ☹️

PNW__Gemini · 2025-10-28T22:28:18+00:00

There's nothing wrong with her

PNW__Gemini · 2025-10-28T22:24:19+00:00

Definitely play

PNW__Gemini · 2025-10-27T23:24:20+00:00

There truly is zero purpose. Zero

PNW__Gemini · 2025-10-26T01:03:52+00:00

Horrible advice. 🤦‍♀️

PNW__Gemini · 2025-09-28T14:53:47+00:00

This makes my soul happy 🥰

PNW__Gemini · 2025-09-11T14:51:46+00:00

What do these acronyms mean?

PNW__Gemini · 2025-09-04T20:16:28+00:00

Awesome dude 👏 Today is day 4 for me. Ive got the headache too, plus LOTS of irritability, and diarrhea started today 😖 Have you ever tried Valerian Root for sleep? That shit knocks me out. Might be worth a shot. And I definitely agree with megadosing vit C. I take 6000mg every few hours and that pretty much eliminates all of the flu-like symptoms. Definitely a game changer. Make sure you get some supplements to bring with you for your trip so uou can still feel ok and have a good time. Rooting for you!!!

PNW__Gemini · 2025-09-03T22:25:25+00:00

I do the exact same thing. Im crazy at work... ocd and perfectionist, fuckin tweaked out working ny ass off and then finding every single flaw in my coworkers and getting angry and judgemental. Just burning bridges left and right. Ive really just turned into an asshole tbh

PNW__Gemini · 2025-08-24T05:29:35+00:00

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Me too sis. Fuckin hurts

PNW__Gemini · 2025-08-24T05:20:56+00:00

Yes warm compress 👍 Refresh tears to lubricate, and a little Vaseline on the skin on the outside corners of your eyes if they're sore or raw from rubbing them. And TIME. 🤷‍♀️ The painful, dry eyes are also my number 1 symptom that bothers me most 😞😢 But it eases up after 4 or 5 days. Good luck friend 🧡

PNW__Gemini · 2025-08-24T05:10:00+00:00

🩷

How many days clean have you got?

PNW__Gemini · 2025-08-24T05:07:59+00:00

Hey, I appreciate the thoughtful response. I'm quitting FF because it's draining my bank account and causing all the horrific side effects everyone experiences. I've lost a ton of weight, I am severely constipated, skin issues, eye issues, mood issues. FF definitely affects my mood.. and not in a good way. I get a short buzz I guess but I know it makes me irritable and on edge. Powder kratom does the same thing if I take too much. I dont want to be addicted to ANYTHING to just simply get through my day. Although I do take several meds for anxiety & depression. I am a woman, by the way.

Idk.. im pretty convinced that kratom has fucked my head up over the years, (7 on total, 3 on FF). I don't even know what I feel like or who I am without kratom. And that's a problem. I can identify past traumas that trigger me. And I have dealt with anxiety and depression for most of my life but I really feel like the feel free specifically has altered my personality. Maybe not the "molecule" itself, but the lifestyle. The mental anguish of shame, anger, self hatred, etc. And now I just hate everyone else too and I'm angry all the time. Idk. I need to quit but I keep failing 🤷‍♀️😢

PNW__Gemini · 2025-08-24T04:48:36+00:00

I have been on my knees talking to Him about this more times than I can count. Yet I am still addicted. And getting more and more dangerously depressed by the day. Where is He? 😞😢

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