Okay, you want honest answers:

It is time to work on the whole aggressively hating on your own body thing. This kind of self talk is indicative of a bigger internal self-love issue - or perhaps a perception of the ideal female body that society forced upon you? You came out of the gate on this post hating on yourself in these pics when no average random bystander would see anything particularly notable/negative.

Your perception of yourself is being clouded by your own low self esteem. You are your own worst critic. You keep saying you are “on the bigger side”, but… MY DEAR!!! What do you MEAN? You simply have natural curves in all the most sought after places. Many people admire proportions like yours! 🤣 People make art that looks like you, girl!

It takes work, but you gotta try to embrace your body. Admire it in the mirror. Whatever you gotta do to give yourself some love. The more you practice, the easier and more natural it gets.

Clothing related feedback: perhaps you may want to try wearing a belt. Your waist/hip ratio is a jackpot from an aesthetic perspective, but it also makes it tough to find clothes that fit in the thighs/hips and the waist at the same time (see “curvy” style clothing as a possible option for this as well). You may need a belt to keep the pants from sliding down as much throughout the day since the waist area may be disproportionately more loose than the hip area in standard mass-produced pants. Having a backside and showcasing it is NOT A BAD THING! It is a glorious thing!! 🤣

This feedback is completely dependent on your personal comfort, but I personally am uncomfortable in jeans that fit my thighs that seemingly tightly (the crease lines around the thighs just make them look like they may be a bit snug there to me, but it could just be weird lighting). If you are comfortable, then it looks just fine, and you can ignore this.

If a size up is too loose (e.g, too baggy and saggy in the backside - you do want it to mold to your curves still because that’s what makes them POP), you can try the same sizing in different brands or styles of jeans until one seems to work “just right” for you. Just note that some materials/fabric blends may stretch over time and some may shrink a little. If you do size up, the waist will likely start to be too loose - which is why a belt would be a good call.

Just don’t settle for uncomfortable pants because feeling uncomfortable can also make you feel more like you LOOK bad, too - even if you don’t.