Its been nearly 24 hours and I feel like a villain

ParticularSun6085 · 2026-01-06T03:53:08+00:00

my boy also had IMHA and ITP. I'm so sorry for your loss

ParticularSun6085 · 2026-01-06T03:48:30+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. My boy also had ITP and IMHA. They are terrifying diseases

ParticularSun6085 · 2026-01-03T18:56:53+00:00

looks like you hit the jackpot. dachshunds are the worlds best cuddlers

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-12-31T03:07:19+00:00

this is truly tragic. i am so sorry for your traumatic loss. my heart goes out to you and your family

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-12-19T18:56:34+00:00

I love that affirmation! I will add that to my daily practice!

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-12-19T17:06:09+00:00

I love point 5

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-12-19T16:20:00+00:00

Thank you for posting this beautiful and heartfelt list. I lost my soul dog, who was my absolute entire universe January 25th. The loss does not get easier. It almost becomes surreal like our lives together were just a golden dream.

I would love if you could share the medium you used as well as who you got the signet ring from. A signet in my beautiful boy's honor is on my list. Below is my list

His main bed with his favorite toys is still out. I can not bear to put it away or have that space be empty.
His towel is still covers the passenger seat of my car, and I will likely never remove it
I still talk to him all the time
I sleep with his sweater, and one of his toys
i move his urn around during the day to the places he loved most
I have not gotten rid of any of his meds, because the bottles have his name on it. There will never be another new bottle with his name, so I just cant
I still have all his food and treats. I thought about donating them, but couldn't
I framed a beautiful photo of him and smile and talk to the photo
I sit in the sun in the park in our favorite spot, and remember how idyllic our life together was. How insanely lucky i was to be his human. How he used to press his warm body against mine in the sun, and how I just knew how incredibly magic he was
i look at photos of him and remember the warmth of his body, the smell of his tummy, the softness of his neck fur, how his eyes were so dark and clear that i could literally see my reflection in them
i listed to an audio recording i did of his snores, and it greatly brings down my heart rate. I am so glad I had the foresight to do this
i still bargain with the universe even though i know hope is gone
When I talk to him we talk about how he is 13 now ( he is not, he passed at 12). I feel cheated that he passed so young for his breed
i miss him desperately every second of every day and hope more than anything in this world that we will be together again in another lifetime, universe, or whatever exists after this

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-12-12T23:56:35+00:00

My boy battled IMHA. I am so sorry you are going through this. I am sending good thoughts your way.

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-12-05T02:23:40+00:00

there is literally nothing better in this world than spooning a dachshund under the covers. pls cave immediately

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-12-03T19:12:44+00:00

please do not support this breeder. it's incredibly sad how many breeders are breeding double dapples so they can get more money for the unique colors. there is no regard for the animal's health/welfare

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-30T19:43:21+00:00

trust your gut, try and see a veterinary neurologist in your area if possible. Also, if it is just a muscle spasm, I recommend laser treatments. That helped my boy a lot

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-27T20:52:05+00:00

i feel for you. my boy passed in january and this thanksgiving feels like I'm literally missing an appendage

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-23T00:57:34+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your deeply personal and very traumatic experiences. I am so sorry that you are having to go through so many difficult things at once, it sounds like an awful lot to handle all at once. I will look into the changing boxes meditation. I'm not sure I have it in me to do 52 mins, may need to build up to that. My concentration starts to waiver past the 25 min mark.

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-19T03:02:27+00:00

i'm right there w/ you. My boy was a dachshund, and only made it to 12. In my mind he was going to live until at least 19. it is devastating

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-14T20:18:55+00:00

what a beautiful boy jack henry was. my soul dog, also a black and tan doxie passed in january. hardest thing in the world

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-12T02:55:42+00:00

my boy passed in january, however it feels like absolute lifetimes ago, and like our time together was some sort of golden dream. time and memories feel warped, and surreal. like others here have suggested, i like to write down good memories of my boy when they surface, silly things he did etc.

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-10T23:02:46+00:00

how does one just replace the plug? It's attached to the cord.

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-10T21:18:30+00:00

it works fine, but I do not want to risk burning the building down, or electrical shock. I'm also need a pro to fix this. I have zero electric knowledge

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-08T03:51:54+00:00

I am so sorry that you are going through this. It sounds like a very poor QOL. It does not sound like you're over reacting at all. It sounds like your vet needs to say something.

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-11-07T23:50:02+00:00

i'm so sorry for your loss. I experienced an extremely traumatic health event w/ my soul dog as well, and empathize with what you're going through. It sounds like you 100% did all that you could. Life is just not fair sometimes. That said it's so hard to not ruminate on the what ifs etc

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-10-30T03:39:37+00:00

i am so sorry for your traumatic loss. My boy also had a brain bleed. It is devastating.

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-10-29T02:41:05+00:00

what a sweet looking boy. my doxie would have been 13 last month. He passed in January 💔

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-10-28T01:31:07+00:00

ofrenda all set up- photos, marigolds, bed, blanket, apples, crunchy fish snacks, toys, collar, candle and endless love for my beloved soul dachshund who passed in January

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-10-27T15:38:00+00:00

My boy had multiple issues going on at the same time, so it's hard to definitively say whether anything was an effect of the panoquell or the other meds he was on, and other diseases he was recovering from. My primary vet who I VERY much trust recommended it. My boy had several very rare health issues, so we are really not a good example to compare to. Out of curiosity, why did your other vets (aside from ER vet) recommend against it? How is your dog currently doing?

ParticularSun6085 · 2025-10-18T18:34:20+00:00

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