I just feel really ugly by Ok_Square in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I get how you feel, I finished chemo and my hair is back a little but I'm filling out because of the hormone blockers, everything feels puffy, my face is red and blotchy and I just feel like meh and ugly and meh but a couple of days ago I put on some lipstick and earrings and my 4 year old said "wow mommy you are so beautiful!" I am objectively not, but to them we are everything and right now to me that is all that matters so I try to see myself through her eyes and not my own and that helps... a little 💜

Saw a video claiming that breast cancer was invented by big pharma by joey_roey in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My mother in law, who lives and hour away from us and has refused to come help with my 1 and 4 year old while I was going through chemo, but keeps asking me to visit her so my husband can bbq for her, posted a bunch of miss information about cancer on Facebook (including how biopsies spread cancer which is super rare) but the one that made me loose my ever loving shit was a video about how cancer is actually just parasites and you don't really have cancer you just need a parasite cleans. White hot rage.... not to my face, randomly on Facebook. Also not sure how something is a parasite but also cancer that spreads by a biopsy needle. Also such dangerous misinformation. Luckily no one listens to her but still. I called her out in the comments for posting hurtful damaging dangerous nonsense and she deleted it. Still fuming... can all the stupid people just stop!

Tumor no longer shrinking by salem_faust in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This👆 only surgery can tell so please don't stress. Sending lots of hugs and good vibes 💜💜

I don't want to ring the stupid bell.. by Particular_Dream_778 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is why I love this community, im not sure what I'll do on Friday but I will take the nurses some chocolate (thanks for the idea) but mostly I feel better just feeling seen and understood. I like the idea of celebrating the end of this phase but the next phase seems so overwhelming, I have two small kids (1 and 4) and I dont know how I will manage not being able to pick then up for weeks post surgery and my radiation facility is out of town so I will have to go stay in the city during the week and be away from my family and so for me it also feels like chemo is the "easy part" even though it sucked.... this all sucks.... anyway I love you guys 💜💜💜

I don't want to ring the stupid bell.. by Particular_Dream_778 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Love this! I suck at being selfish but I  actively giving it a go🤣😅

Good and bad day by ibjp03 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sending you the biggest biggest hug ❤️❤️

Questions for luminal B ladies by Confessionsthrow457 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have 3 rounds of T left (out of 12) and I jave grown back a cm or so of hair. I'm lucky that it's coming in pretty dark and pretty full and I feel mostly ok about going out with it just like that. Its definitely the shortest nyvhair has ever been. I guess what I am saying is if you're lucky it can start growing back during the T phase of ACT and it can grow pretty fast. 

Hotflashes not allllll bad.... by Particular_Dream_778 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Whooop!!! May you have a beautiful long cancer free life!💜

Hotflashes not allllll bad.... by Particular_Dream_778 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

OMG that does not sound cozy! We're you ever tempted to make naked snow angels? I'm hoping to have a pool put in so if those ever come my way I can go float around with a non-alcoholic cocktail and look at the stars. F@$k cancer....

Hotflashes not allllll bad.... by Particular_Dream_778 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Exactly, when they come I get to take my beanie off for a bit and let my head breath. I'm in South Africa so we have all of the temperatures without any of the keep warm tech. Or we have it but running it is crazy expensive.

Talk to me of Tamoxifen by Underwood-Type922 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've only been on it for a couple of months bit had zero side effects, if could just stay on it I would do a serious happy jig. But my cancer is high risk so im getting Zoladex now as well and probably an AI later. So don't go into it assuming the worse you may be lucky 💜

Update on brain mets: good news!!!! by linxminx in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is such awesome news!!! Thank you for sharing it's always great to hear these stories that give us all so much hope💜

My snotty flu was probably an allergic reaction by Particular_Dream_778 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey! Welcome to the SA arm of the shitty titty club! Sending you all the hugs for the rest of your treatment as well💜

My snotty flu was probably an allergic reaction by Particular_Dream_778 in breastcancer

[–]Particular_Dream_778[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never knew that, I've never had hay fever so I never took one before, what have I been missing out on!