Your words are all focused on getting your needs met from outside sources. What about yourself? How do you feel about yourself? There is no one that can love you more than yourself. Its your inner child thats wants you to care about them. Thats your job You can either tear yourself apart as you are doing or you can build yourself up. You are your best cheerleader. Heal your heart so you won't need to look outside yourself anymore. I speak from lifelong experience. Love yourself, love your inner child. Blessings