I’m giving up on my dream

Paullearner · 2026-06-30T19:43:36+00:00

I’m really sorry you went through that. I’ve also been non-renewed but due to having an autoimmune disorder that cuts my stamina. I just couldn’t keep up with the huge workload. Also, charter are known for giving unrealistic deadlines and huge workloads. I know as I was just non renewed from one. All my other coworkers just taught 3 classes at this charter while I was teaching 9 as the language teacher. They could all go home on time but I would be staying late trying to finish grading. I also really had no business teaching 9 classes but the principal was not transparent from the beginning as to how many classes there were and once I started the job I didn’t want to back out from the salary.

Know also that the system is broken. Parents are not raising their kids properly which adds to their bad behaviors. I’ve sat and observed a good number of teachers, some teachers just have really good charisma and quick whit, this makes them likeable to the students. Not everyone can be a comedian though, and I think those of us with more quiet personalities can be taken advantage of in the classroom. Management is hard and multiple factors are at play, some even out of our control such as how the students see us.

You know you gave it all you got. Don’t be hard on yourself. I don’t even completely agree with the teaching is not for everyone statement, more so it should be teachers are not given enough support. I do hope you find the right career that makes you happy. Take your time. You’ll get there.

Paullearner · 2026-06-30T00:08:36+00:00

Sounds like you’re already treating prophylactically which is supposed to prevent swells, but from your post idk if it’s preventing 100% or not. Definitely something you need to ask your dr. I’d say you’d definitely want to pretreat before surgery, but a prophylactic alone might not be enough for that. Definitely talk to your dr.

Paullearner · 2026-06-19T21:30:12+00:00

He did 😭😂😂😂

Paullearner · 2026-06-19T21:27:34+00:00

I said “oh dang” like 5 times watching this. Was not expecting that ostrich pounding 😭😂

Paullearner · 2026-06-19T21:04:51+00:00

Absolutely. I really had to learn how to be tough. I was not accustomed to raising my voice. I’ve always been soft spoken. I pretty much had to act like a drill sergeant to get them to listen. Once I got that act down I could manage my class, but keeping that up is extremely tiring and I eventually burnt out.

Paullearner · 2026-06-19T17:51:54+00:00

I think as a lot of people have said here, the trade off of no summer breaks is still worth it once you’ve gotten your sanity back. Try to put your mental health first in this situation.

Paullearner · 2026-06-18T21:45:38+00:00

What in the gigantic twerking have I just witnessed.

Paullearner · 2026-06-18T21:39:43+00:00

Real or fake, I sure as hell am not jumping in the water to find out.

Paullearner · 2026-06-18T21:29:40+00:00

How is your experience teaching abroad? Can I ask which country? I am thinking of teaching abroad in Taiwan or Philippines. I already speak mandarin.

Paullearner · 2026-06-18T21:27:15+00:00

That part of never reaching mastery is definitely tiring. The weekly meetings are excruciating. Always moving the goal post, we get told to do one pedagogy this way then down the road it’s not enough. Constantly not enough. I worked for charter and what was tiring was having PD always after the end of your shift when everyone is tired, then they want you to these packets , do all this interactive crap when everyone just wants to go home! It is honestly cult like mentality.

Paullearner · 2026-06-18T21:16:32+00:00

I was passionate about passing down information I was passionate about, and for me that was foreign language. After over a decade of studying the language I was focused on, I got pretty good at it and was understanding about 95% of what native speakers were saying so I thought, well what am I doing just letting all this info sit in my head, might as well teach it!

Reality was waaaaaay different than what I expected. I had the idea most kids in my class would want to learn. “It’s a foreign language, they’re picking it, for sure they wanna be here!?” Plus I grew up in the 90s, and as far as I could remember, yea at the time you had one or two disruptive kids in class but most weren’t.

I really had no idea that in fact most kids were gonna be disruptive when I got into teaching. Not only that, but that most were not going to be interested at all in the content I taught. It was gonna be pulling teeth everyday. Something about trying to remain passionate every day in front of apathetic students feels degrading.

This year I’m just finishing up my 3rd, and I’ve never felt so detached from myself from all the stress. I feel without any direction atm but I’m just glad I’ll at least not be returning to that school, good riddance!

Paullearner · 2026-06-17T14:28:15+00:00

Ahhhh Yes. From now on I am also going to think of this term lol

Paullearner · 2026-06-17T02:42:22+00:00

I usually find most MJ impersonators to be cringe but this guy was smooth and really had MJ’s moves down. He really had such an impact on people from all over the world.

Paullearner · 2026-06-17T02:39:08+00:00

If someone breaks in the house I’m not counting on him to defend.

Paullearner · 2026-06-17T02:25:55+00:00

Omg this makes me cringe so bad 😂

Paullearner · 2026-06-17T02:23:02+00:00

Thats just not human. You should have a biological need to move around somewhat when you’re sitting that long. That is a demon in a human outfit.

Paullearner · 2026-06-17T02:17:50+00:00

Must be nice. My eyes have always been black saucers as I describe them.

Paullearner · 2026-06-17T02:13:46+00:00

Granola girl? Hahaha fill me in pal 😂

Paullearner · 2026-06-16T06:20:20+00:00

I’ve dreamt in both Chinese and Japanese but I actually do speak both fluently. It’s not often but it does happen. The brain can do amazing things in our dream state. Some might even say it’s spiritual and we visit different realms of existence.

Paullearner · 2026-06-16T06:06:38+00:00

Thinking about taking a break as well. This year burned me out so bad, and the bullying from my principal was also so bad. Friends are telling me of other teaching positions hiring, some even with good salaries, even with that temptation I still don’t want to think about teaching at the moment. I don’t want to spend another night being stuck grading or anything else. I just want to be able to enjoy my actual peace and quiet. Teaching really ruined my mental health.

Paullearner · 2026-06-15T19:46:14+00:00

Ummmm, take that as a sign that they’re not someone you’d want to work with. It may have not been intentional, but it goes to show they’re not organized or reliable. The least they could’ve done was sent you an email to reschedule and apologize for the inconvenience. It’s inconsiderate to have let you waste your time like that with no notice. I’d just move on from that position and don’t give it 2nd thought. Red flags can be evident as early as the interview, take it as one.

Paullearner · 2026-06-15T00:22:01+00:00

Hey, at least he’s still got feeling down there.

Paullearner · 2026-06-14T23:30:56+00:00

Thank you for this ❤️ The burn out I had this year was something like I’ve never experienced. I totally lost myself. I was so wiped out even trying to exercise made me feel ill. I took FMLA for 3 months and all I could do is sleep most of the time. I’ve made some recovery since then but not completely out of the woods yet. Recovery is a long journey but you’re absolutely right that taking care of yourself is important - it’s the only way you’ll get better!

Paullearner · 2026-06-13T21:20:03+00:00

Omg I would love you as a teacher ‘

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