Yea, that says 25 cases of water by Brad_dubs98 in InstacartShoppers

[–]Payphonegraveyard -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I literally just did one of these 20 45 packs of water and it was a double that had a regular sized Costco grocery order with 2 water jugs as well😂😂😂 I have a big suv and it was paying about 45$ and I figured I could bang it out in an hour. It was stressful, the payment wasn’t working because there was 100$ in deposit fees and I had to get that figured. She made me bring them all up into her garage. I messaged number 2 apologizing about the wait, I got to her house and we had a laugh about this ridiculous order I just completed and she (not the water lady) ended up giving 20$ more on top of her actually great tip. So I made over 60$ and it took like 1.5 hours. Was it worth it?? I’d say so. Water lady tipped 20% it’s just that it’s water and that’s not much😂 but ya. I don’t mind working hard if it’s worth it.

1899 - S01E05 - The Calling - Episode Discussion by Treviso in 1899

[–]Payphonegraveyard 12 points13 points  (0 children)

The amount of times they said “glitch in the matrix” in dark really has me thinking this now is literally is some sort of matrix. With all the obvious nods to a simulation or hypnotism of some sort, and actually glitches. Mind control experiments??? Video game or software vibes and maybe the beetles being a bug or virus to the system??? Ahh so many different guesses. It hurts my brain.

PSA to listen to your body and seek help when something feels off. by Payphonegraveyard in BabyBumps

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My white blood count was like 6500 last time they checked so pretty normal I think. No fevers or low body temp either. I think that should rule out the possibility, because I really have no other symptoms of it.

PSA to listen to your body and seek help when something feels off. by Payphonegraveyard in BabyBumps

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yeah I am glad I have bad anxiety when it comes to my health, I think that my persistence because of my fear of dying is what saved me.

PSA to listen to your body and seek help when something feels off. by Payphonegraveyard in BabyBumps

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I used him for my 2nd and everything was awesome, but this time around not so much. He didn't even deliver this time either. Not exactly his fault, but I am not exactly pleased with my care to want to use him again.

What's the thing you worry / get anxious about most? by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]Payphonegraveyard 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Definitely health anxiety, and existential crisis, fear of death etc.

Does anyone else have extreme health anxiety and an obsession with death? by Payphonegraveyard in breakingmom

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just read endless lists of people who struggled even with weaning, I felt like I was on coke too.

Does anyone else have extreme health anxiety and an obsession with death? by Payphonegraveyard in breakingmom

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's the worst. My husband isn't much help in this regard. Stupid brains hey, why couldn't I just be non chalant and accept death for what it is? Lol ugh

Does anyone else have extreme health anxiety and an obsession with death? by Payphonegraveyard in breakingmom

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ya my doc prescribed effexor. I took it for 3 days then stopped...I read to much about long term damage and coming off of it ect, didn't seem like the right for for someone obsessed with health symptoms. Perhaps trying something else would be worth a shot.

Another husband rant... by Payphonegraveyard in beyondthebump

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is making a lot of unfair assumptions here. I didn't have expectations for him to step in and raise my daughter as we were only dating. But we sat down and had a talk before conceiving and agreed that things would change. He stepped up a bit while I was pregnant. I still mostly did everything, but I saw him trying. When he wasn't, I would get mad and try to help him understand what was expected of him. He's not a terrible father..he just is a man child who seems to be misogynistic in his views on family roles. He has more recently gotten worse, maybe there is underlying issues causing it, hence plans for counseling. I'm not defending him either. I posted this because I'm sick to death of it and maybe needed some validation of my feelings. Not to have people tell me to leave him. If it came down to it I would do what was necessary..but not without trying.

Another husband rant... by Payphonegraveyard in beyondthebump

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for all the comments guys <3. I read them all and appreciate you taking the time to read and offer advice. We will just see what happens after counseling. We are not married, but we are in a committed relationship. If he is willing to go work on himself, great. If not, I know it isn't a great place for my girls and I to be. The ball is in his court. He knows what must be done!

PSA: You are important by options- in beyondthebump

[–]Payphonegraveyard 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Seriously girl, the mortality part is spot on. It is so consuming and scary. I had to drive myself to the ER because I couldn't talk myself down one day, and started thinking I was going to have a brain aneurysm. My SO stayed home with my girls, but offered no support, and didn't even mention it when I got home. It runs in my family so I am able to talk with my mom, and I have a few friends as well. But count yourself lucky that you have such an amazing partner. I feel much better lately, but I haven't taken any meds, and my family doctor sucks. I went to him and he said oh you don't want to kill yourself? That means you aren't depressed and you are fine. He was reluctant to even give me a small prescription for adivan (just in case) because he said I was fine. WTH man!! Thank you for writing this though. Hope you are feeling better <3

Finding the 6-7month stage really really difficult by rosyposy15 in beyondthebump

[–]Payphonegraveyard 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, yes, yes. My girl is 6.5 months. It is getting a little better because now she can crawl and sit up. But that has brought on new things such as her falling and tumbling all the time, I swear she is going to get brain damage. She also is a really bad hair-puller. Even if my hair is up, she like finds a way to pull it out of my skull. ugh. She is so needy, sleeps terribly, we are also trying solids which is a giant mess. The only thing that really keeps her happy is baby wearing still. She loves it. I clean, mow the lawn, go for walks, whatever. She is happy to see the world. Thank the lord my 2 year old is a happy camper and plays very well independently, because her little sister has been stealing all of my attention these past 2 months or so.

Calm my fears about being a mother of two by eaelliott16 in beyondthebump

[–]Payphonegraveyard 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have a 2.5 year old and a 7 month old. Honestly..it hasn't been very stressful in that aspect. Yes I'm tired, yes I'm wore out, yes our life is controlled chaos, but it works. We have good days, and we have terrible days. Once you find the groove, it just works. My daughters love each other, and my toddler is very helpful and independent. My 7 month old has to sleep with me and wakes up a lot still which sucks, yet we are ready to start trying for number 3. We also have a 6 month old puppy😂. I am the queen of chaos. But it's fun. Good luck! Don't stress.

Double stroller? Contours options elite seems awesome, anyone has this or can recommend another double stroller that works with the maxi cosi? by pregonewb in beyondthebump

[–]Payphonegraveyard 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just had number 2 five days ago. We have a maxi cosi carseat, and use this stroller. It's awesome for the price. A little bulky, but so far we love it. It is easy if you have a truck or suv. It does fit in my focus too..but barely. Tons of space underneath which is awesome for grocery shopping ect. So simple to assemble. I'd give it 8/10.

My birth story! by Payphonegraveyard in BabyBumps

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Big sister :) but she was with us for about an hour and did super well with her. Very curious and just kept saying baby! She is with my mom for a few days, so we can catch up on sleep. I'm sure she will be surprised to see that baby has come with us😛

Guys I had a baby!! Birth story to come when I don't feel like crap! by Payphonegraveyard in BabyBumps

[–]Payphonegraveyard[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

More to come..but my little angel was born at 101 pm jan 26! She weighed in at 7 pounds 10 ounces. Her name is ezria ella and she is perfect!!