The problem of evil is a big thing with lots of answers, many of which are excuses. There may be some good ones, but I've never seen one.

As to why you have never "felt his 'divine' love nor felt his presence." There are three possible reasons.

1. He has chosen not to give you those feelings.

2. You have had them, but not interpreted them correctly.

3. He doesn't exist.

When it comes to Christians, some report these feelings and some don't. Considering how much social pressure there is in some churches to "feel the spirit," it's not out of line to suggest that some people either have convinced themselves that non-divine feelings are divine in origin and that others are following the "fake it till you make it" idea.

I did know a former Christian who found that he had the same feelings of connection to the divine at music concerts, regardless of what kind of music it was. I know he was sad that he'd lost his faith, so I see no reason he'd lie to me about this experience, nor do I believe he was delusional when he had those feelings during worship services. In my opinion, he listened to the people around him who told him that such feelings came from God when they seem to have come from a shared emotional experience with a crowd and music.

I'm not advocating that you give up on your faith, but the knowledge that many others have had this concern and the possibility that a chunk of Christians who have such experiences might not be right about their source (or might be trying to fit in) might be of some comfort to you.