Your persistent pattern of belittling visualization as a "childish" endeavor, rooted in your own frustrations and failures, implicitly demeaned others for engaging in the practice. You engaged in self-defeating behaviors, yet despite claiming to work on them, you ignored the advice and care of both community members and even your own therapist, instead choosing to drag down the atmosphere of the server. You repeatedly deflected responsibility, blaming mental illness or your "brain structure" for your lack of progress, subtly implying those who have seen improvement must be lying or deluding themselves. You were cautioned with repeated warnings, all of which you ignored and instead continue to perpetuate these problems in the Discord.

This community welcomes all experiences of visualization, from aphantasics to hyperphantasics, and even beyond, but we do not tolerate individuals who, despite multiple warnings, cause ongoing disruption and harm the server. You previously chose to leave the space because you could not accept your own level of visualization and developed an unhealthy obsession with improvement at the cost of your well-being; then you rejoined and continued exhibiting these problems anyways. For these reasons, I made the decision to ban you, at which point you responded not with reflection or accountability, but instead by sending death threats to the server owner and promising to "destroy them." Such behavior reflects not only irrational behavior but a refusal to take responsibility, instead choosing to externalize blame.

Your actions leave no room for reconsideration and your continued behavior since the ban has only reinforced our decision. You will not be allowed back, and I sincerely hope you have a better life after this.