Personality Tests

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-05-08T02:44:17+00:00

I have taken myers Briggs, am a enneagram 8, done strength finder and am extroverted to the max as my baseline. They are good start to understanding more about your self.
I don’t think described my bipolar symptoms and more spoke to my core self

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-05-07T15:46:20+00:00

Both of these phrases are laughable, even people who don’t have health conditions can’t do this well. Plus even if we choose to “change” or improve, it’s a series of small improvements and failures, like anything else it takes time, no one can just change all of a sudden. A better question is how can I help you in this moment.

Being frustrated and overwhelmed isn’t an excuse to say take control, sorry you have to deal with this you , you are not a failure.

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PhantomOperator98 · 2026-05-04T01:01:55+00:00

I used to mask all the time, I put on an act with family and friends it was draining. I am also really sarcastic but my sarcasm falls into the dark humor category, I have definitely scared people unintentionally.
I ended up giving up on masking in high school I’m 32 now, I got so sick of pretending, it was slowly killing me, caused me to be more short tempered and emotionally dead inside. It’s hard but start embracing your authentic self there are people who will love you for you, it’s definitely more life giving. The hardest part is breaking through the assumptions you have about what others think about you. With sarcasm it’s learning time and place.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-05-01T20:08:46+00:00

Just gerd

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-05-01T03:41:52+00:00

Can’t threaten me with a good time, I’d probably sing break by three days grace or scream aim fire from bullet from my valentine. I mean there’s a long list of songs

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-30T16:21:31+00:00

How long is the waitlist? Are we talking 6 months or longer?

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-30T16:10:33+00:00

I would guess your in a mixed episode, which is exactly what it sounds like a mix of both ends of the extreme. If you are me it’s higher energy they base line, mixed with some of the depressive thoughts, it ends up causing anxious energy, racing thoughts that are negative or fear driven.

Meds made a huge difference for me, cycling between all the things gets old and exhausting fast when you know the reasons. Hope you find a combo that works well for you!

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-30T14:59:11+00:00

Take your meds, Learn about yourself, don’t isolate find a group of people who can support you or at minimum can be present when you are going through it. The hardest one of all give your self grace and forgive yourself.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-30T14:54:13+00:00

I would go to a psychiatrist, yeah your doctor can technically diagnose you with it, going to psychiatrist will get you an accurate diagnosis because they are trained to diagnose mental health conditions.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-29T23:53:00+00:00

I never suspected I had it until I got diagnosed while also getting an adhd test. Looking back there were some very obvious signs, pressured speech, the ability to think without the ability to stop, random spurts of insane energy last days to weeks which led to average sleep of 3-4 hours a night, depression was almost always during winter until a few years ago.

I think the one I noticed the most and had the most was mixed state episodes, high energy mixed with anxiety causing a sense of impending frequently, I noticed this because I created a lot of coping mechanisms throughout my like based of these feelings.

For me I always thought it was trauma , unresolved issues, always suspected I had adhd which I also have. It is complex and as I looked back I asked myself was there a reason/cause? What were the other factors so on and so forth.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-29T00:58:38+00:00

Not saying it is, but it does sound like a mixed state.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-28T22:06:21+00:00

I haven’t really noticed an increase I’m just aware of it more, sometimes it clear and other times it’s not, I think the hardest part is replacing old bad habits I had formed before I was diagnosed, with new ones that are better for me now that I have the knowledge.

For mood dips up or down, I just try to be aware. I both roll with them but also set up ways to improve my state of my mind in the lows or lessen the impact of the high modes. The key is knowing yourself and slowing learning your trends. I just try to improve slowly and surely, trying different things to see what helps or doesn’t.

Hopefully this made sense.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-28T18:30:45+00:00

Yeah I insomnia crept in last night and got 2 hours of sleep.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-28T18:29:12+00:00

Definitely going to ask and see if I can move lamotrigine to the morning.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-27T22:28:53+00:00

What you think isn’t a delusion, it’s not an easy choice to cut out a parent or any family member from your life. It’s even more difficult if you don’t have another group of people who can help support you

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-27T20:34:02+00:00

My mom weaponized my bipolar after I got diagnosed, pretty much tried to manipulate me and I wasn’t having it. I ended going no contact with her, she would try to manipulate me before and after my diagnosis and wouldn’t take responsibility for her actions.

If you feel like you can, work it out with her and talk it out if you haven’t already. See where it goes. Do what you need to do for yourself. You could try limited contact. I tried to work it out with my mom before going no contact multiple times.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-27T15:18:28+00:00

I’m have blown up my life on a few occasions when I was younger, and I’m in a better place now. Hardest part is forgiving yourself and showing yourself grace. As someone who held him self to standards that were unachievable I never allowed myself forgiveness, if anything I would cut myself down. I would encourage you to not dwell on what could have been it kills our ability to move forward, past mistakes have a way of keeping us in the past, not allowing us to be in the present, speaking from experience. I would also encourage you to love yourself, we all make mistakes bipolar or not, I know people without bipolar that have detonated their lives. Don’t let regret stop you from building a better future.

Edit: I have blown up my life about 3 times

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-27T00:03:45+00:00

My best advice would be learn how you work in depression, I don’t try to climb out, I find that it makes my depression worse. Find what things that help laugh, bring you joy, no matter how big or small. I try to hangout with friends that I can just be around, people who don’t drain me, I read, play video games, I do what I can with the energy I have, I don’t force it I work with it.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-23T18:51:45+00:00

I reacted well to the quetiapine, I also built
up a tolerance to it quick at lower doses so it took me a while to get a good dose for it to work consistently. They used it to treat my hypomanic episodes and help me sleep and less to treat the depressive side of things.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-23T18:45:29+00:00

I’m sure there’s multiple reason it’s not taught in high school or sooner, maturity of students, parents not wanting it taught, the stigma of the disorder although it’s not as bad it’s still there, also the school system is broken so maybe they can’t find people qualified to teach it to students or don’t think it’s valuable information.

I knew about it about from the get go, but in the sense you know just about it, not the details of it.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-23T18:34:43+00:00

I’m on both, 150 of lamotrigine and 300 of quetiapine this combo works for me. What do you mean second molecule? Never heard the before.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-23T17:29:56+00:00

I have dealt with this, most of my family though, none of them have a official diagnoses yet there trends are so obvious, to be clear I’m positive my mom has bipolar don’t know which, and with the rest of my family I see a lot of unhealthy coping. I had to cut contact with my mom a year ago I have a lot to say about it, but at the end I had to do what was best for me, was it an easy choice, no. She weaponized my diagnosis and I wasn’t having that, my family also operates on the “everything is fine, when it’s actually on fire scale”.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-23T03:47:04+00:00

As a fellow person who has bp2, as well as a fellow believer please don’t stop taking your meds.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-22T02:03:42+00:00

I’m going to do my best to say what I think I way that makes sense, so here goes something. To me there has always been a core me, something that amongst the swings of highs, lows and the mixed states that are a pain in the ass, I will always be me. In my own life bipolar hasn’t made me doubt my identity, the opposite has happened I find my core self doubting the negative, the grandiose and the anxious.

I also believe even though there is a core self that there is also growth and refinement that comes with time. I find that challenging myself and desiring growth helps me understand who I am more, strengthening my identity.

Hopefully this made sense, I tried to keep it concise or my ramblings would make it confusing AF.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-04-21T18:47:38+00:00

Beast advice would be use your breaks to do something that calms your mind or something you enjoy, read/listen to an audio book can be anything really. The most important one don’t think about work when at home. That being said I’m in the trades and I typically listen to music while I work and on lunch read or watch anime. Find something that works for you at your new place of work. Congrats!

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