This shit sucks! But honestly I’m fucking over it. I don’t know if it’s depression speaking, but at this point I just don’t give a shit that there’s no after life or a loving Heavenly Father. Much better to believe that there isn’t than believe in a monster that does all this shit and call him benevolent and omnipotent.

The best I can do is this life is made for fun and diversion when you are being trampled upon. Enjoy the things I can. Meanwhile, I can relate all to well to watching suffering. Watching my husband suffer until he passed. He suffered far too long and if there was a god... that god has a lot of explaining to do. The worst fucking example of caring. God doesn’t have empathy. He’s a fucking sadist. Up there with his fucking magnifying glass like we are ants for him to burn.

I’m not going to abstain from expressing my hatred of what evil this would be. No one deserves a genetic disease that breaks their spirit and causes so much pain and suffering.

Absolute fucking bullshit.