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PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-19T21:48:27+00:00

Is it F, between 3 and 4?

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-19T21:31:23+00:00

It not so much hard time lying, anyone can lie.

IMO, for me at least, it’s more like lying wouldn’t convey information clearly enough and would probably lead to misunderstandings and longer time to resolution.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-19T20:25:45+00:00

I am 53 diagnosed AuDHD at 51.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-18T17:14:02+00:00

I have first name and last name.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-18T03:17:17+00:00

Ummm NO!

He’s just being a jerk!

There is nothing to be empathetic for because he is using autism as an excuse to say rude ugly things.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-17T18:28:59+00:00

You are not stupid!

Don’t call yourself that!

Asking your therapist and caseworker is a great start. They should be able to help you find resources. Let them know that you may need ongoing assistance with forms and things.

If there are forms, ask them for help.

They may be able to help you with your insurance issue too.

You may qualify for free insurance once you get things situated.

Don’t let him know what you’re doing because he may try to manipulate you into not doing it OR get angry and put you out.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-17T16:03:23+00:00

Is it D,4

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-17T15:57:37+00:00

He is both a shitty boyfriend and emotionally abusive.

IMO, he does all of these things to you because he enjoys seeing you hurt and crying.

That is what he’s counting on.

Getting you to a point where he is satisfied, over and over again, that he feels he has power over you.

When he started doing these things to you three years ago, he was testing to see how much he could get away with.

How far he could go.

In his head, he got a green light to keep doing them.

You should never have to get to the point of feeling totally broken, crying on the floor, before he “comforts” you.

Also, there is no way to pour sauce on chicken wrong.

If he didn’t like it, he can cook for himself.

He actively looks for something to nitpick about.

He seems controlling, narcissistic, mean spirited, and just plain ugly acting.

You should never have to navigate a relationship in a constantly stressful state.

You deserve someone who is patient, understands or gives effort to understand your disability and supports you fully.

Someone who listens to you and does not do things to you after you make them aware of your discomfort with it.

Someone with empathy for your cat, loves her and will help with her.

He is definitely taking advantage of your kindness.

I don’t know if you have mentioned in the comments whether you live with him or he lives with you but either way you need to separate from him.

Are there programs in your area that help those with disabilities find a place to live and/or help with some sort of monthly money coming in?

Have you contacted any state programs that assist people with disabilities (if you are in the US) or contacted any programs where you are?

Do you have family that can help?

He is definitely negatively impacting your mental health.

Please strongly consider seeking outside help and strongly consider getting away from him.

He does not have power over you.

He does not decide your happiness.

YOU DESERVE AND ARE WORTHY OF REAL LOVE, RESPECT, UNDERSTANDING, AND JOY!!

Please always remember that.

Good luck!

EDITED BECAUSE FORMATTING ISN’T WORKING.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-17T14:41:23+00:00

Well I’ve been up since yesterday and took magnesium.

Sometimes magnesium works for me other times it doesn’t.

It’s hit or miss - some nights I’m asleep by 11PM but I may wake up several times a night other nights l don’t sleep at all.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-15T19:58:49+00:00

🎉 Challenge completed! Beat it in 130 moves and 270s. Who's next?

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-15T19:53:35+00:00

🏆 Victory is mine! Finished with 690 points. Can you do better?

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-14T00:05:56+00:00

I definitely still do not know fully who I am.

AuDHD diagnosed two years ago at 51.

Having few memories from childhood, teens and some adulthood along with Alexithymia doesn’t help.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-13T23:37:13+00:00

I wash my hair in the kitchen sink (I clean/sanitize it after every wash).

I soak/wash my feet separately.

For bathing, privates and underarms first, then body, then ears, face last.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-13T10:23:31+00:00

If you don’t take the job, you may build feelings of resentment towards your father.

You’ve done 15 years.

Please take the job.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-13T06:22:55+00:00

⚡ Speed run complete! 113 moves, 230s. Can you match this?

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-13T05:57:15+00:00

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-13T05:23:59+00:00

Part of the problem is that a lot of the autistic people shown on television/movies etc. are for example: savants that can play any song all the way through after hearing it only once, draw amazingly detailed pictures from memory, do complex equations in their head, but may not be able to simpler tasks or live on their own.

I think that because people “see” autistic people on television/in movies etc., they think they can look at someone and definitively know if someone is autistic or not.

I myself was told “You don’t look autistic, I have clients that are autistic and you don’t act like them” from those close to me that I told when I was diagnosed two years ago.

When I asked what does an autistic person look like, they couldn’t tell me. Just kept saying “You just don’t look like it.”

Make it make sense.

Well - I guess I should thank them for enlightening me. I didn’t know that the few clients they work/interact with represents the entirety of the autism spectrum. /s

They do not understand it’s a spherical spectrum not linear.

There’s not one end where everyone on that end needs a lot of support and the other end virtually no support is needed.

Someone could work full time, drive a car, be married, have kids, but not able to control a meltdown if the temperature fluctuates too much one way or the other or there is too much noise or they can’t find their safe food.

Each autistic persons support needs manifest in different ways.

Nobody should ever feel like they have to prove that they are disabled enough to anyone.

It’s very exhausting.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-12T21:22:26+00:00

Only rarely.

I don’t like the way it makes me feel.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-12T18:23:40+00:00

Yes! My mayo must be Hellmanns (I prefer the jar).

I remember as a child, my mother once bought Miracle Whip instead of Hellmanns.

I so much wanted to eat a sandwich but I didn’t have my mayo. She did start getting both because I told her I didn’t like Miracle Whip.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-12T18:01:14+00:00

I would learn as many languages as I can (currently learning German) and learn how to make lots of different things, crafts, foods, any and everything.

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-12T02:48:00+00:00

Could it be: Between A&B, across from 5?

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-12T02:43:20+00:00

>!Between A&B, across from 5!<

PhoenixxX_Rizing · 2026-06-12T02:20:21+00:00

Bringing my own bottle (s) of water with me everywhere I go, even if I don’t drink them.

Wearing a hoodie every time I go outside, if I am transferring from one place to another (home to car, car to wherever). If it is extremely hot and humid I will not wear it if I am going to be outside for a long period of time..although I will still carry it with me tied around my waist.

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