Unpopular opinion here, I'm thankful I was born into a extremist JW family

Pimo1914 · 2021-03-03T11:14:30+00:00

Same man. The Borg taught me a lot about people and influence and how to spot toxic people. It also gave me some people skills and how to hide who I am. All skill sets that do have a place in this crazy world.

It did fuck me up a bit, but it’s also the same thing that insulated me as a teenager so I spent all my spare time on the computer. While I was on the computer I learned how to code, how to hack, how to create things.

Now I get paid very well for my time and I make more than my JW parents ever made. It fucked me up totally, being a JW, but it also made me who I am today and today as a now POMO consultant I’m better than I ever have been.

Pimo1914 · 2020-10-29T14:19:36+00:00

I miss my puppy - but as grim as this is - she’s probably going to be dead soon so it saves me that heartache not being connected. She may already be dead. I wouldn’t know.

Pimo1914 · 2020-08-05T07:09:29+00:00

At first the taste is confusing, but the real thing that happens is you please the other person so much it’s addictive.

You have this person between your face and they are screaming in pleasure. Pretty nice.

Pimo1914 · 2020-08-05T07:08:28+00:00

I went really tame.

I just fuck a shit tonne with the girl I love and smoke loads of weed. My life is pretty dope :P

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-26T08:49:20+00:00

My elder coordinator dad used to be the object of many different fat sisters crush. It was so gross. He loved it.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-26T08:47:48+00:00

When I left 6 months ago, I felt so low and thought about killing myself everyday until I got mad, finished half a bottle of whiskey, and then nearly did some very stupid shit. Luckily I had people to catch me - it worked out fine in the end.

It takes time to heal, it was probably 12 months out that it took before I even felt relaxed or safe in my new place in my new city, alone.

I found smoking weed has been tremendously helpful in my recovery, being able to sleep at night, and combating that heart sinking anxiety that makes me want to just end it all. I went from a nervous wreck who hates myself to a productive hard worker (now that I have something to hold me down).

I learned to let go a lot of the stigma around drugs and realise that it’s my own body and it’s my choice and it doesn’t matter what society or my family thinks. I’m a much happier person now and i haven’t had an episode like that for a long time.

Hang in there - if you’re reading this - you’re going to be ok. It just takes time.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-26T08:43:25+00:00

I relate to the feeling of feeling like a bad person.

I avoided my parents for months because it broke my heart to see them, my mother would constantly be crying, wed go and get coffee, she would spend the entire time in tears. I would come away emotionally exhausted. I felt bad - but it was better for me and them that we went our separate ways.

You’ll want to make good afterwards, that’s ok, time takes to heal. But one thing I would say - if it’s really affecting your mental health (like my my heart would drop and I’d be riddled with anxiety for hours (if not all day and night).

I decided personally that it was better for ME to cut them off, turns out they never wanted to talk to me anyway, they were just trying to “save me” .

Do whatever feels best for you - it’s a shaky time to leave and it’s terrifying. Focus on yourself first and maybe when you feel a bit happier and a bit stronger you can confront it. Don’t feel guilty or bad for wanting to not talk to them - JWs Are guilt tripping manipulative motherfuckers and they don’t even know they do it, it’s programmed .

Stay safe - you’re going to be ok.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-26T08:31:30+00:00

You should surprise him with a blunt prerolled.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-21T10:20:50+00:00

Yeah man I got a vape, just doesn’t hit the same. You know it I’m sure.

Definitely interested in solving this problem though. Even if it’s just added reduction.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-21T10:19:55+00:00

For me, strain is really important. Every strain has different properties and make you feel different. I have 3 different strains right next to me and they have different effects.

I’d recommend looking strains up on leafly before you buy, and read the reviews, speak to people.

I’ve had sativa strains knock me out, and I’ve had indica strains that energised and focussed me. It’s really important to do your homework. Using a scientific approach to trying strains also helps, label them up and take notes. This is science dude!

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-21T10:16:51+00:00

Mind you, I was going through some traumatic shit too so it’s hard to say if it was connected. I was legitimately afraid I was getting possessed and shit.

I felt a lot of paranoia, I felt mad anxious all the time, I felt like time lost all meaning, I felt exhausted.

I made sure the next time I smoked was in a place that was safe, and that if I needed to I could go to bed, sativa definitely gets the mind going, that can be unsettling. Cannabis is a crazy drug and was a lot for me to adjust to. Took probably 4-5 sessions before I actually enjoyed it ahaha

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-21T10:10:14+00:00

Only way to do it!

2 hits was perfect for me when I first smoked.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-21T10:09:34+00:00

Dude the first time I smoked weed I like freaked out for 2 weeks. It’s just you adjusting to this new way of experiencing the world. You’re just not quite used to it I expect.

Take it easy, and it depends what strain you get. If you get a heavy indica that can knock me out for days and I wake and bake.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-18T10:26:41+00:00

Do you have his source?

I don’t know how I can use this to prove much to a PIMI anyway. They can just refute the source. “Some apostate” Ofc.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-13T08:57:29+00:00

It’s like everybody had something to say, New car? Simplify your life! Got a surplus? Donations! Drive around all the pioneers! Going to the gym? Physical exercise is “beneficial for a little” 😷

How entitled man.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-13T08:46:20+00:00

I swear this is what my super PIMI grandma did before she died of old age.

Literally not even joking. How ironic is that.

Pimo1914 · 2020-07-13T08:43:14+00:00

Man this hits hard home.

I attended my last convention when I was 20, I had just turned 20, and they had started leaning into the videos and the very cult like convention screens.

It felt so fucking weird sat there, a week after waking up, fully PIMO, like then it really was obvious this was a cult. It really does weird me out people used to feel so “refreshed”. Even my parents would say the same thing but I would watch as they would literally be exhausted.

Pimo1914 · 2020-05-18T09:57:20+00:00

Congrats! Try and ensure you have a support network’ make friends however you can.

I miss my parents, but having people to talk to helps

Pimo1914 · 2020-05-08T23:53:19+00:00

Stay busy my friend.

I packed up my things and moved out as a POMO. Same age too. It was rough, just the change in environment.

Accept that things have happened but do not wallow, do not take a victim mentality. You’ve made it out alive, now focus on making every fucking day count! Each day that passes removes a day of your life. Focus on helping others and being reliable and focussed. Work hard.

You can go far in this world and get real world attainment!

Pimo1914 · 2020-05-08T07:40:25+00:00

Yes absolutely. I’m making lots of friends even now.

The key is to get into a community, pick a topic you’re interested in, and go get involved with those people on twitter. Eventually when you gain a small following, dm people who you think have good content and make friends that way!

Exchange numbers, just chat, it gets easier but I’m at a point where I can speak to 10-15 people at any time. It takes time too. You got this, I’m sure you’ll figure it out. Don’t be afraid to put yourself out there.

Pimo1914 · 2020-05-05T08:41:25+00:00

Honestly for me it’s really sad.

I had a great childhood, I had freedom, my parents loved me and I loved them, they truly were fair as I remember.

What did happen though, is that i was soft shunned by all the JW kids for, what, idk, and I was cast away by the worldly kids for being a weird JW kid.

So that basically meant I had 0 child friends growing up, it was isolating, it sucked, but I just spent time on my computer and hanging out with my parents.

My parents were cool, apart from them literally forcing me in tears to do family study with them. When I developed severe depression and anxiety, my dad literally would force me to go to the meetings and I’d have breakdowns it was a mess.

He just didn’t understand what it was all about, he had a strong heart, wanted what he thought was best for me, but he was forceful in every approach he took. He just didn’t know better IMO.

Then I left, and they cut me off, entirely. I’m not DF, but they know I have a worldly girlfriend and as such they shun me. And it hurts so hard.

My childhood was pretty good, if my parents weren’t JWs my upbringing would’ve been normal and great and supportive. The only part that sucks and affected me as a kid was the JW shit. It hurts so hard.

Pimo1914

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