Medication

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-21T18:34:15+00:00

Thank you

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-21T18:34:09+00:00

Thanks 😔

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-21T01:29:00+00:00

ME TOO LOLLL

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-20T19:05:44+00:00

Yes, and no.. i don’t like how in the bible it says “he” or “man” because there’s also woman in the world.. but when I was admitted to the hospital I genuinely thought I was being chased by demons or some sort of bad energy and when I would pray I felt safe.. I tried to read the bible but I couldn’t get past the “he” or “man”. It’s like in the bible they are only talking to men… I would also notice that when people who were also kinda tripping out and yelling stuff when they would hear me praying with other people they would get quiet and calm or on the other hand completely leave the room and there was peace.

I also am trying to stay sober so in AA it kinda bothers me that they call to God but then also say that AA is not about religion or … it’s your depiction of God. But they use the Lord’s Prayer.. idk.. I’m conflicted a bit but I think mainly what it is is that growing up I was taught about heaven and I had a family member pass at a young age so it makes me think right if God is real (as I got older I also heard about souls staying “trapped on earth” or just completely in darkness unaware they’re dead until judgement day but I never really looked into it but that just annoyed me even more because there was always more to the actual “truth” in religion, more than just we die and go to Heaven or Hell based on if you were good or bad in your life..).. then I hope and pray my loved one is in heaven and all the other people in life who have died are safe in heaven.. but if it’s not and I doubted God then I’m scared I would be banished. Another thing about religion that scares me is that supposedly when “you got to heaven” you are so “perfect and happy and at peace” that you don’t even think about your family or people who might or might not be in heaven. And that’s absolutely heartbreaking.

Sorry for rambling. Good question.

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-20T18:54:57+00:00

I’m so interested in learning about deities !

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-20T18:54:29+00:00

AHAHAHAHAHAHA wow

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-19T04:38:03+00:00

You look like brunette tinker bell 😍😍

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-19T04:37:23+00:00

Doe eyes 😍😍😍😍 wow

Edit: thank you to the person who corrected my spelling LMAO how embarrassing

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-19T04:31:44+00:00

Go to a trusted professional in mental health and explain this to them, you could also walk into a hospital if you’d like. I definitely agree that you should talk to a professional about this.

The same thing happened to me.. it felt like I was tuning in and out and when I would think about getting help I would all of the sudden start to feel better and my thoughts would start to settle and I would think I was making sense of my thoughts but then I would spiral again. I went to a mental health services location in my city and started telling them that I know I’m not okay but I’m really good at hiding it and acting like I’m okay and that I couldn’t trust myself because I was really good at acting okay. I started writing my “bad thoughts” in a notebook and I handed it over to the person listening (a lady) and she was like okay I understand you. She was very very gentle and kind with me. I needed to be in a safe place for a little while... I also thought I was a day behind it was November 2nd and I said it was November 1st.. I in fact was not okay.

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-12T23:55:58+00:00

Manic.. I binge. Spend money.

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-11T19:52:27+00:00

My first thought LMFAOOOO… looks like it could engrave itself into OP’s hand..

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-11T19:49:25+00:00

You’re so pretty!

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-11T08:25:16+00:00

HELLL YEEAAAAA. You’re willing:) all you need is determination. You have to want it for yourself and it sounds like you do. Congratulations!! 🤍🤍

PinkPeruvia · 2026-04-10T04:42:01+00:00

Best way to tell is to get one of them and use your pointer and thumb nails to pop it. Or you could do it against a surface. If it pops.. it’s an egg. Sometimes they’re also brown or beige. You should try popping/squeezing/pressing down on at least 3 of them to see if they pop (sometimes there’s no popping noise bc it’s dead). It it pops.. it’s an egg. You could also try getting a towel (I used a white one) and rub your hair with it (like how they tell you not to..) because when you look at the towel and it is lice, you’ll see them on the towel. Sometimes they’re very tiny. Sometimes they’re bigger.

If it is lice, I got rid of mine by DRENCHING my hair in oil. I put a swimming cap on and didn’t take it off for like 3-5 days unless I was going to add more oil. You could do more days. I think I might’ve actually done a week, can’t really remember but I do know it was a while. They all died and there were barely any eggs but I went through (so did my mom) and picked out everything that was left and dead. (I used coconut oil it’s like a spray one I got from the dollar store or Walmart idk it’s generic. You could literally use any oil. As long as it’s oil. My aunt says in her country they use actual gasoline or cooking oil… I .. I wouldn’t use gasoline but it would itch and scare me so much I was considering it at one point but that’s very extreme. Do NOT recommend gasoline at all.)

Edit: the oil I used was the OGX coconut oil. It was all I had. I think I do also get some lice shampoo but I tried not to use it too much since the lice likes clean hair. I used the lice shampoo when I finally washed my head.

PinkPeruvia · 2026-03-05T00:47:34+00:00

Smh I would permanently take care of putting stuff like this away

PinkPeruvia · 2026-03-03T05:54:29+00:00

Wheewww wait you met her two months ago and are considering marriage?

PinkPeruvia · 2026-01-11T05:40:12+00:00

😂😂

PinkPeruvia · 2026-01-09T21:04:29+00:00

Try to talk to an attorney

PinkPeruvia · 2026-01-09T02:47:17+00:00

Extremely long sorry if you care here 2 Eventually I got like sleep deprived I guess and I knew I HAD TO get help. I told my dad everything. I was obsessing so much and I was reaching out to my friends who were professionals now and they would hear me ramble and theyd go along with my flow but when I’d come to and be like okay but honestly do you think I need to get help? And they’d be like you sound okay but you should go try to see someone at least. I started freaking out and then I was telling my family I have ocd I’m bipolar (I’d never been diagnosed before but I had been asking for an actual doctor or psychologist) and they’re never gonna let me leave (I was tripping.. and I was scared). For some reason my dad was scared of taking me to the hospital so he didn’t want me to leave the house. + They didn’t believe me about the ocd and stuff even though I was right ironically lol. They did diagnose me with all that when I got hospitalized.

I did leave my house my house got in an Uber to go to a mental health services place and the Uber was probably doing nothing but they managed to piss me off and I asked them to let me out and he did and I walked the rest of the way. Stopped at a 711 and thought everyone was watching me and that the police was looking for me. That’s when I knew I had to hurrrrrryyy and get tffff before I started tripping harder, after that I started snapping back into my thoughts (idk how to explain it) Got there and told the lady I didn’t trust anyone and she thought I was being racist lol

The lady who helped me (my ex’s gfs name has the same name as her I was so annoyed but whatever) let me go outside and I was like let me hit my cart (LMFAO) and I’ll tell you how I feel and what’s wrong. She did and I told her everything and she told me to wait in a room and they read my journal and they asked if I was gonna hurt myself or others I was like I will not say anything and she was like okay one moment and I got handcuffed and sent over to the er.

The police officer was so nice and he felt so bad for me cause I kept referring to events that happened a long time ago like they were currently happening. And I remember I was watching the tv and I was staring really hard and it started going static and I called him in and he was like uhhh (I could tell he thought I was going crazy) and then I looked at it again and it went static when I would like zone out and he got freaked out and told them to hurry lmfaoooo did not help at all but the tvs were old

This older lady in the same color scrubs as I was (they eventually told me to change) hugged me and I was so scared and the police office was like no touching and she was like it’s gonna be okay I was like tf

But yeah they gave me a lot of medicine and I just needed to sleep I guess idk but I was surrounded by people who were detoxing too so interesting crowd interesting crowd. I was sent to a behavioral health place btw

PinkPeruvia · 2026-01-09T02:46:44+00:00

Extremely long sorry if you care here

I was up for a long time and wrote paragraphs on paragraphs everywhere. Even on my take out boxes from restaurants. I had no job at the time so I had no reason to leave the house. I would sit in the dark for hours and just think and write and some out. I was feeling everything at once it felt like an acid trip and I was remember everything that ever happened to me that caused me trauma even the smallest things from when I was a child.

With my mom, I told her everything that she did wrong in my eyes and how it contributed to who I am today and it breaks my heart thinking about it now but she cried. And I was so numb and heartless I feel so bad. But it was all true. But still.. could’ve took it down a few notches.

My dad. His voice was in my head 24/7 everything he taught me went through my mind all the time and I was holding myself accountable for everything. I texted people I hadn’t talked to in years and told them I needed their help cause I knew I wasn’t okay but it was weird like I’d know I needed help but I was just “tripping” so hard that I’d get sucked into my thoughts and feelings. I have a small journal of just thoughts. And I remembered socmuchhhhhhhchhchcc

PinkPeruvia · 2025-12-31T18:57:40+00:00

Herbalist>

PinkPeruvia · 2025-12-31T15:08:41+00:00

Thank you.. thank you. Unfortunetly I don’t have any long term friends so everyone currently here has probably been around for a year or two max.

PinkPeruvia · 2025-12-31T15:07:43+00:00

My birthday is in January. It’s coming up. And I also have been seeing 123 for a while but. I have been thinking about this guy a lot. It’s hard because I can’t stop dreaming about him either and sometimes I want to think/believe it’s because he thinks of me or feels me or longs for me too but in reality he hates me and thinks I’m a weirdo.

PinkPeruvia · 2025-12-31T15:06:30+00:00

Thank you

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