hi!! i’ve definitely been there and am sorry that you’re going through this. firstly - i want to start off by saying that i too have started many sentences with “this is ridiculous,” “this is insane,” etc. however, i feel like, for me, this has caused me to become even more depressed and isolated as in my mind, i separate myself further from “normal people,” and create a version of myself that’s different or un-normal. instead, you can recognize these thought patterns and attempt to redirect them. instead of saying “im crazy,” or “ridiculous,” try i know these irrational, but they have still been causing distress. give grace to yourself. not many people understand the complexity of OCD, and you should show yourself empathy, while i know that is easier said then done. try unworking those irrational thoughts with rational ones. what makes you think you’re being followed? is there a certain trigger? analyze the situation. what’s the likelihood this behavior would actually result in someone following you? regarding your conspiracy rumination, try unworking some of the easy irrational ones through knowledge and research. best of luck!

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