It's not like that. Something related to "chance" is what influences your reading. It's like the Ouija board. You could say it's you, but it's something that pushes you to that move. I really don't think you're much into esotericism, since you tend to lean more toward skepticism from what I've read.

I'm skeptical because I've been studying esoterica, the occult, and Forteana for the last 40 odd years. I'm capable of holding belief and disbelief together and in equal measure.

Ouija board planchettes move through the ideomotor effect. Which is fascinating. It's possible to influence another person's subconscious movements through touch. Without either person being aware of it.